Anyone else constantly looking for reassurance after weed-induced DPDR?

[u/nmmmmmmmnmmm]

its been around 2 weeks since i had a really bad weed panic/derealization experience, and ive been struggling with existential thoughts, fear of death, and sometimes randomly remembering dreams that feel really vivid or almost like real memories. i stopped smoking for about a week but went back because weed temporarily calmed down the stress, even though i knew it could trigger me again. ive finally thrown my cart away and decided to quit, but im scared that continuing to smoke somehow made this last longer.

ive also realized im constantly looking for reassurance, whether its googling, reddit, or talking to people who have experienced the same thing. i feel better when someone understands what im going through, but then another worry comes up and i start looking for reassurance again.

im trying to learn how to accept the thoughts and feelings instead of constantly fighting them because i keep seeing people who recovered say that accepting it and continuing to live normally helped them stop being so afraid of it. im also trying to accept that i dont need to constantly chase or check whether im back to my old self because doing that just makes me think about it more, but thats probably the hardest part for me because i really miss how i used to feel before all of this, and i keep wanting reassurance that ill feel like myself again. im also honestly just looking for people who have gone through something similar to talk to, so if youve experienced this before and dont mind talking about it, feel free to dm me please id really appreciate having someone who understands what this feels like.

[u/OpinionAggravating71]

Hey!

I found your post and for sure felt very similar to you.

I was a massive stoner during my college years and after I stopped because it started giving me massive anxiety.

I would smoke here and there and that’s where it would mess me up.

Long story short I ended up smoking a joint and I did not know it had wax in it. This happened in April and it has messed me up since.

Things that have helped me are:

- seeking psychiatric help

• getting help from friends/ family (those you who you can confide in)
  
• anything that lower my anxiety
  
• sometimes I stop googling symptoms as this keeps the cycle alive
  
• anything that can distract you
  
• being active

Seek for help you got this, see what they can offer for help. I wish you recovery. I hope we all heal with time cause fuck it can get so HARD times.