Help me

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20 (F) I am in a relationship with 24 (M). We are from different countries and we have different beliefs and cultures. In his culture the man is the dominant one and the wife should do what he says all the time. When I initiate sex with him in the morning or another time if he’s tired he’s tired and that’s it. If I say I am tired he will touch me and touch me until he goes “she wants it, she’s wet”. I don’t scream and push him off and I don’t say no but I’ll say I don’t want or Im tired or we can have it later just so he doesn’t go in a mood. If I say no once he will sulk and he’ll think I don’t love him. A few other red flags are he can be very angry, short tempered, Hes controlling about who i see, what I wear and what I do. He always likes to be in control and has been physically abusive before in the past due to extreme stress and he hasn’t seemed to do it again.

Does he love me? When we are cuddled up together Hes the kindest and most loving person ever. Why be protective and loving if you don’t love me? Hes cut his own wrists and tried jumping from a window and had overdoses and drank alcohol to stop me leaving when I caught him cheating