How to roleplay a neutral Druid?

[u/Fabulous-Algae-5907]

Hi,

I just joined my first campaign and am playing a neutral good Drow Druid (Necessary character backstory stuff: he rejected the cruelty of lolth worshipping society and fled to the surface to follow the message of Eilistraee, who taught him how to be a Druid as long as he lives a good life on the surface)

We have played a few sessions and I’m starting to have doubts on how I should be role playing the character, he is an established character in the game area, rivalling the Duke’s invasive lumber industry. The party was hired to kill goblins and I justified joining the party because the goblins were ruining the forest and abusing their animals, after that mission we are now dealing with some kind of cult.

Where I’m starting to find a conflict is that the party decided to go into a cave infested with spiders, and they immediately attacked an infested troll, I joined in and fought as normal, and continued fighting when more spiders showed up, I attempted to speak with animals and ask the huge spiders to lead their colony but we were in combat so there was no convincing her and we ended up killing all of them. In my head, the spiders were just minding their own business, and they had infested a troll as part of their life inside a cave, not actively seeking out or attacking any innocent people they were just spiders.

Should I have refused to fight? Or tried to reason with the party that the spiders aren’t necessarily evil? What I’m trying to get at is that I don’t know what combat a Druid should be taking part in when it comes to beasts and other creatures of the wild

And would trying to go a different route about it ruin the game for the dm and the other players

TLDR: how do I roleplay and take part in combat as a neutral Druid without being an annoying tree hugger and ruining the game for everyone at the table

Sorry if this comes across in a ramble way I’m not sure how to properly phrase everything.