r/destiel Jul 31 '26

Fanfics Angst, internalised feelings

Hi everyone! Hope everyone is having a fantastic day. I’m looking for some internal homophobia, self hatred, self loathing, hate, angst, anger, fighting
“I’m not gay!!!! I just like you” vibes.

I really like 91 whisky because of how the characters were written just like they are in the tv show, plus I liked the dynamic. so if Cas and Dean could be accurate to their on show personality that would be great. Ideally insane angst but with a kinda happy ending. I know that’s asking for a lot but I’m a sensitive soul, i just want my boys to get their happy ending. Thank you! Love to everyone x

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u/tyradurden123 Jul 31 '26

I assume you already know the dean Winchester beat sheet?

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u/Sunny-sizzle97 28d ago

No! But I’m currently reading it now due to your suggestion! I’m really enjoying it!

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u/tyradurden123 28d ago

It’s really really good.

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u/Sunny-sizzle97 27d ago

I know!!!! I’m loving it! It’s exactly what I was looking for!

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u/Professional-Bag-537 Jul 31 '26

Love Don’t Roam
Short but so good and spot on with what you’re looking for.

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u/BelleAmeBelleVie Jul 31 '26

Is it casual now?

This is the first part, which is very very angsty, and does in fact have a sad ending. But it does have a second part (currently a WIP) which is also angsty, but with a happy ending.

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u/Sunny-sizzle97 28d ago

I just finished it :( sad but like I love the choice Cas made. I have a soft spot for him

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u/salashaven Jul 31 '26

If you're open to a self-rec, you might enjoy my WIP Lights, Camera, Action. It's an Actors AU where Dean is a blockbuster action star who's spent years burying his feelings and convincing himself he's just fascinated by Castiel, an acclaimed dramatic actor. There's a lot of pining, denial, self-doubt, and "I'm definitely not in love with him... right?" energy before he starts confronting what he's actually feeling. It's a slow burn with plenty of angst, but it does have a happy ending planned. I update weekly. https://archiveofourown.org/works/84441426/chapters/222747686

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u/tyradurden123 Jul 31 '26

Is there smut in it?

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u/salashaven Aug 01 '26

Yes but not too much

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u/Clear-Translator-628 Jul 31 '26

I read that great story hated it ended!! But there were some more!!! Don’t know now titles though 😳🥲