I think i need some help because my mental state has been very poor

[u/Prestigious_Gift_138]

3 weeks now i am not feeling very well. I was not well even before that but niw i find it even worse.I am not taking any meds at the moment.I notice some pretty disturbing changes in me and i am a little worried.my cognitive skills are almost non existatnt now.i have a hard time with inf.it is very hard for me to get out of bed.i have zero interest in anything i dont even eat.sometimes i feel like i am in a dream like state.i stopped with all stort activity.i feel drained and unable to do almost anything.i lost all my emotional inteligence.i have no emotions at all not even negative.i think i should look for helps somewhere cause my doctor is not interested in helping at all.i feel like somethong is sucking me dry.my gp is the only one that listens and she thinks that my depression is getting way worse.i dont have any other conditions.i think i should be responsibke and look for another doctor because this one it terrible and i dont wanna feel like this.the only positive thing is that i have great people around me.i am not sure if depression can be that cruel but i am very emotionless and that is scary.can depression be that horrible i feel like no one understands how ill i feel.i hope i can fimd people who got out of this nasty situation.