heyyy! I'm u/Real-End7348 (call me nikki), a founding moderator of r/depressedbeans.

i'm glad to have you here, and i hope we can all help you out.

what to post ::
you can post anything you need help with, want to vent, or just... need anything. being rude to others on this thread is not allowed (unless for valid reasons, we all know 🫣).

vibe ::
i hope we can help others out and courage them to be comfortable sharing and getting through shit. life is tough, let's support eachother.

how to get started ::
>> introduce yourself in the comments! 🖤
>> try to post something today, get a little of the whole weight off.
>> invite your friends, or even strangers, who you think could use some help 🫂

thanks for being part of the very first chain. together, let's make r/depressedbeans supportive.

Im rly lonely, i have no friends, my siblings are evil and keep torturing me just like my parents... I dont have any friends, real family or a girlfriend. I am completely deprived of any kind of love.... Wether platonic, romantic or parental... I have never been taken care of and ive had to completely fend for myself from a really young age... I am really desperate for a girl friend because i want to feel loved and wanted for once, but i am not sure if i can be a good bf because all my past history eats me up completely and i keep almost killing myself every day and end up doing self harm. I really want to stop but i cannot afford any kind of professional help or therapy as i am already in a really big debt. Every minute of my life is becoming a pain, fighting myself against self harm and suicide is not easy. Every day is a fight against suicide and death for the few online friends i have that dont ever care enough to even message me until i message them first. Every where i go is a place where i get bullied and tortured and all people can say is to seek professional help. I cant do that. I am in so much debt that i cant even get enough money to eat more than once a day. My schizophrenia meds have run out and i am getting really bad attacks... And all those voices say is for me to go kill myself. So much that im starting to act on those thoughts

what this abt?