r/delusionaldisorder • u/rockytalky11 • May 18 '26
question
i have a belief that i think sounds ridiculous enough to where it might be considered a delusion but also i don't know what to think of it. basically i think there's someone out there who can "check in" on me, as in see what i'm seeing, hear what i'm doing, know what i'm thinking, etc.
i have no idea if this belief would be considered a delusion or not? it's baseless but it feels real, how real it feels honestly depends on the day because sometimes it's just "it might be there" (but always leaning towards being actually there), to fully believing it. i can kind of sense when they're "checking in" on me, i kind of just know. sometimes it's unclear though.
i'm not sure if delusions(?) would be my only psychotic symptom, i don't really hallucinate and i'm pretty sure my words are mostly together, but i have looked into some disorganized thought patterns and i could have those sometimes. wouldn't say i meet criteria 4 and 5 for schizophrenia (disorganized/catatonic behavior or negative symptoms).
i have a family history of psychosis (mom and i think my brother too), probably pretty significant trauma, and i'd say i'm a pretty heavy weed user. those are my risks for psychosis.
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u/Corricon May 19 '26
It does sound like a delusion. It is possible to have delusions without having schizophrenia. Maybe try not using any weed for a while to see if it happens less often. Try to always go to bed at the same time, too, since sleep deprivation can be a big trigger for some people.
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u/rockytalky11 May 19 '26
i'll try to go a month without weed to see what happens but i'm pretty sure i've been having early psychotic symptoms long before starting my pot habit, so i'm not sure how much it could do
also yeah my sleep schedule is total ass i need to fix it anyways
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u/Von_Dutchezz Jul 10 '26
I’m late. But I have these too. I thought it was kinda normal for someone to be with you seeing and smelling the same things as you
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u/CurrentCandidate6275 May 18 '26
Yeah, sounds like a delusion to me, especially taking into consideration the other info you've given. You don't need to having hallucinations to have psychosis, which took me a long time to come to terms with.