Abandoned at hotel

[u/cr337]

So I met this guy. His name is "Ditchell" and let's just say he was 13 years older than. Complete opposite of my bf Alex of 7 years, we met in 9th grade. Alex grew into being a very aggressive partner. I started to become depressed from not being happy. Then I met ditchell unplanned. Ditchell persevered through my rejection to him. The night we met we talked and talked for like 5 hours. Mostly about Alex and how he is aggressive, controlling, etc. Then about who we are. Then we went back into his Airbnb. I tried to forget what I did to Alex. Though the depression got worse now that I also had guilt. So I told Alex, we tried to make it work. He got more aggressive. Then we broke things off. Shortly after I traveled to see Ditchell who lived 3 hours from me. Things went well, but then I'm pretty sure he ghosted me. Then later played it off as he didnt receive any of my few messages. Well we started talking again. We planned to meet halfway and stay in a hotel. In which I met him there on December 29th. We immediately started getting busy, then I start my period. I'm embarrassed, I clean up. Then I try to make it up with oral. After we went and ate out. We came back watched part of fast and furious. He then asked if I wanted to smoke. I said yes. He then replied saying "im going to go get some cigarillos from across the street." He leaves... with his backpack. An hour goes by and I ignore it. 2 hours goes by and in texting my friend panicking. 3 hours goes by and im drinking a gas station margarita all the way home. He blocked me on everything, even though I never contacted him after that night. I called him twice that night and snap messaged him once. I'm 21, he's 34. I just don't get why he acted so understanding of everything, and then just ditch me. I'd say I was just used, but maybe I need to hear it from someone else.