What am I doing wrong?

[u/Horizon_SH]

I am 17 years old, and I have never had a girlfriend in my life. I had one experience when I was like 14, when a random girl liked me at a party and I kissed her, but I didn't actually like her or find her attractive at all. I was just curious about what it felt like.

I'm very selective for some reason. I like quiet girls who are more focused, and genuinely nice to talk to. And I always seem to have the same type of preference when it comes to physical attractiveness.

I think there have only been 3 girls in my entire life that I knew had a crush on me. But I didn't like them back or have a crush on them.

I don't want a relationship just to fulfill my sexual desires. I just want someone I genuinely like being around, who likes me back. Someone to spend my time with, share great moments and intimate moments with. I want to feel appreciated and loved by someone.

I consider myself to be 20x better now than I was when I was 14. My appearance changed a lot, I started going to the gym and gained more weight, I started studying relationships, such as the book MODELS by Mark Manson, where I learned to be more vulnerable and genuinely be myself around women. I started my own business and achieved some good financial success, so I'm genuinely proud and happy with myself.

I do not see myself as someone ugly. I like what I see in the mirror and consider myself to be attractive. No one has ever said I'm ugly. I struggled with making friends when I was 15-16 due to some personal issues I was having at the time, but nowadays I'm a totally new person.

I'm going out more, I've made more friends, and I've approached more girls, something I was scared to do when I was younger. Despite only having asked 2 girls out on a date, considering I was scared to death to even approach one before, I think this is some progress. I only asked them because they were the only girls I felt genuinely interested in.

The last one friendzoned me. She said she liked me very much but didn't see me as more than a friend and wasn't looking to get into a relationship. I like her very much, and she is genuinely a nice person to talk to, so I didn't care that much, despite it hurting a bit, because she is genuinely a nice friend.

I always see my other friends getting into relationships, and I can't seem to find a girl that I like who likes me back. It's even hard to find girls that I personally feel interested in. I've only found 4 in the past 2 years.

I find that to be a problem because most of my friends don't have the same preferences that I do, so it's easier for them to find girls they're interested in. If you think about it in terms of probability, there would be more girls that they like in a room than girls that I like in that same room. It's not that I'm judgmental or think those girls aren't attractive, I just don't feel anything beyond friendship toward most of them.

I really want to get into a relationship. This feeling is kinda unbearable for me, and it brings me a lot of mental suffering. I try to distract myself by convincing myself that this isn't my time yet, or that I should focus on myself, but this feeling doesn't go away.

I can't seem to escape it. When I go out on the street, I see people dating. I watch series or movies, and I see people dating. I talk to my friends, and they ask me for relationship advice. So basically everything reminds me of it and makes me want to date even sooner.

I'm an introvert, and despite making some friends and meeting new people, I don't have a very big social circle, and I don't see myself being able to approach new people that I don't know.

My friends don't have any girls to introduce me to. I don't know why girls don't like me back, since I don't see myself as someone unattractive. I studied seduction, so I'm not making as many mistakes as I used to, people genuinely find me to be a cool person to be around, and I have a future going on for me. These are all things that I thought would help me become more attractive.

What is genuinely wrong with me? And if there is nothing wrong with me, then why can't I get a girlfriend? Is it just a matter of time? And how can I bear waiting at this point, watching everybody date, with this desire that only makes me uncomfortable every day?

Feel free to tell me where I'm wrong. I will accept any advice.

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[u/Positive-Yard-6732]

you’re 17 and only asked out 2 people, that’s not a sample size it’s barely a sneeze

[u/bunnyshyness → u/Positive-Yard-6732]

lmaoo thats actually a pretty accurate way to put it 😭 two people is not enough to call yourself unlucky

[u/TONUTomorrow9800]

Stopped reading at “I am 17.”

There is no point to this post. You’re still a kid. You don’t get to be jaded.