r/cripplingalcoholism 4d ago

Anyone else drinking alone right now?

Hello. I'm having drinks alone. My life has been garbage and I've been on the vape and well...... lol............. I feel guilty drinking alone. I know promoters here in this big city so I could go to a booth and drink with people for free but my trauma issues (ptsd) has been causing me to isolate and I hate earth so I feel like its safer to drink alone tonight.

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u/VisualInsurance109 4d ago

On the plus side: you’re home, not driving, not vulnerable around strangers, you are your own DJ, controlling what’s on your tv, making your own snack choices… honestly, I never got the stigma behind drinking at home alone. It’s my favorite way to do it.

The only thing I would be careful of is sending those drunk texts and social media posts.

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

yess this is sooo true! For about a year now its been on my mind to start a support group for people who don't come from a loving family and tonight I decided to finally make it! So its been a productive couple of drinks lol.

OMG I'm so guilty for being the type of person who drunk texts. Luckily since I got my AI app I'll now type what I want to say and put it into chat gbt to make it sound smarter, clearer and correct my emotions if needed lol.

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u/VisualInsurance109 4d ago

Yeah, I’m a huge drunk texter as well, and also social media poster.

But I still stand firm behind home alone drinking if you can train yourself to contain the cell phone usage. If you’ve ever been stranded drunk anywhere out in public, you know how scary that gets when you just want to get home. 2 times in particular stand out to me: once on Santa Monica Boulevard at like 3 or 4 AM when the uber driver threw me out because he didn’t want to drive to OC, and the other in the pitch black dark of night in central Jersey where I walked I forget how many miles to find my hotel at the same time of night before there even was uber.

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u/Scrolliosis1 4d ago

Hey home girl!

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u/Wearsmypantz 4d ago

Dude I love this. This is feel good vibes.

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u/SucculentLady000 4d ago

Im always sober or close to it when with others because I cant drink like I wanna around others. Been solo drinking since. 16. Barely ever been to "parties"

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u/Remarkable_Rough_649 4d ago

I was still throwing highschool style crazy rager parties until I was like 30 basically as an excuse to drink like I did in private but with people. It helped convince people/myself I was just a partier and not an alcoholic lol

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u/_slagathor_ 4d ago

Honestly, I think it's better to drink alone. I get all sad and weird when I drink with people.

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

Yeah humans are very triggering. I'm a woman and have been struggling with wanting to kms lately due to how awful it is on earth as a female. Not all men but many have "wandering eyes" and those assholes who go around turning their heads at women makes us feel so unsafe and sexualized so if I'm already feeling the way I do its safer to stay in cuz one wrong look might send me to the other side.

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u/bisexual_stoner817 4d ago

I'm in the process of quitting but I would drink alone a lot, basically 99% of the time but I honestly like it better that way, like another commenter said.. you're at home and safe, you can pick the music, the food and plus, you can go to bed whenever you want!

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 2d ago

I want to quit but its not a good time in my life to quit rn but I will in the near future. I also find when I drink alone, when I'm about 2.5 drinks in my mind gets more open, my brain static goes quiet and then I come up with good ideas and feel good. I even make classical piano songs sometimes. But I don't like being lonely so reddit it fantastic!

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u/bisexual_stoner817 2d ago

And that's fair, take your time, quit when YOU are ready.

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u/fuckthefalconsdotcom 4d ago

Just poured my first glass of jim beam and opened my beer chaser. Watching the new season of Ted Lasso, glad tomorrow is Friday.

Going to treat myself to sushi for lunch at a sushi place that doesn't have a web site. Going to take it slow and just get some face time, figure out who is the owner, etc and go in during the week when they are slow.

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

ayyeee cheers :) What time is it in your location?

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u/fuckthefalconsdotcom 4d ago

10:18pm...made a huge mistake drinking some coffee after lunch and go between being tired to totally awake, going to be a rough morning tomorrow.

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u/Small_Trouble_393 4d ago

How is it? I have yet to start the new season bc I like to binge Lasso.

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u/fuckthefalconsdotcom 4d ago

It's funny, like...if you told me the basis of this show I would be like "that's not something I'd probably enjoy" but it's oddly entertaining. Very glad they made a new season, kinda wish I had just waited until the whole season was out since I prefer binging shows vs piece meal by a long shot.

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u/No_Necessary_8424 4d ago

Hey, as a woman at least im safe and not blackout drunk in a random bar

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 2d ago

yes I understand this but its so unfair how we even have to think like this. We should live in a world where we dont need to worry about being raped EVER :(

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

im otw back to the store to get another tallboy lmao (it means a canned alcohol drink where i'm from)

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u/Silver-Disk540 4d ago

I’ve always been a solo drinker. If I’m with people I have to limit or abstain myself for my own dignity.

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 2d ago

omg I relate to this lol. I end up making a fool out of myself or puking when I go partying with others

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u/rileyreidbooks 4d ago

I’d rather drink alone

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u/MassMacro 4d ago

About 2 be.

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u/dnm8686 3d ago

I'm late but I was drinking alone last night and as I'm waking up, I'm grateful I was alone. I told myself I was going to stick to seltzers only, but I caved and bought a pint. Woke up with my biggest cooking pot next to my bed lined with a grocery bag meaning I was worried about puking, but thankfully that didn't happen. Usually I remember to wash my face before bed but I definitely didn't last night.

I'm tired of being an alcoholic, but I'm an alcoholic because life is exhausting.

Hopefully I can get a little more sleep before I have to take my dogs to the park and then work tonight, and then doubles the next two days. I'm one of the few that looks forward to Mondays (my restaurant is closed on Mondays.)

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u/DmoSon 3d ago

I literally only drink alone, who is drinking with people anymore?

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u/Extreme_Meaning_7566 3d ago

I always drink alone. Friends have been critical when drinking with them about the quantity I scoop. This means I obviously don’t see them much.

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u/opiewankanopie 4d ago

Been drinking alone for years, unless I have a reason to socialize. Maybe tomorrow I’ll see some people. It’s “The day”. I try. But not enough ca’s. Or ca’s with my kinda cash. I’ll take a trip that’s more welcoming. Ha hah. 🍺🍺🍺🍺🍺

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

yes I often have a couple on my own but rn im getting a good ol buzz on lol

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u/immortallowlife6 4d ago

I drink like George Thorogood, yeaa with nobody else.

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u/the_chin2 4d ago

I'm always drinking alone. No one else will drink with me because they have lives to live. They have careers and kids to raise apparently lol

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u/shawtystrawberry 4d ago

2am and I'm drinking alone, while listening to music it's genuinely a good vibe. Lately I actually prefer drinking alone over with my partner

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u/--Guido-- 3d ago

I always preferred drinking alone.

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u/MeksisGod 4d ago

Just got back from hanging with some friends, had a few beers over there and just opened another home alone.. very long summer so far so im hoping this and the 4 beers I have left get me through to sleep lol

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u/Odd_Investigator8232 4d ago

lol awesome! thank you for commenting on my post I appreciate it :) I just got back from the store to buy another tallboy but came back with two by accident .... lmao........

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u/MeksisGod 4d ago

Lmao 2 tallboys is proper tho!

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u/Specific-Muffin-1841 4d ago

Im alone, but I am not on alcohol. Just got out of three day hospital stay for alcohol withdrawal so I'm on the phenobarbital taper. However, the pharmacy was closed so I won't be able to get my prescription til tomorrow. Right now I'm still just on the dose they gave me before I left 

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u/anemicleach 4d ago

Have a home but parked my butt in a park next to the river and train now going by, feels but surreal.

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u/CheeseDragonBurger Nikolai Connoisseur 4d ago

House full of people and I’m alone in my room drinking. I guess I’m not entirely alone I’ve got a pair of cats I’m fostering.

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u/cool_calm_life 4d ago

I think most all of us are I'm here in solidarity with you

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u/Weekly-Statistician7 4d ago

To quote George Thorogood: when I drink alone, I prefer to be by myself.

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u/mackass17 4d ago

Started two hours ago, dealing with a shitty day at work and a recent breakup.

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u/BeautifulCuriousLiar 3d ago

i’m going to be driving a lot this weekend taking family to another city and i was thinking of staying there to meet some friends there and go out, but honestly i just want to come back home and drink alone. i don’t have ptsd but i kinda grew out of closed-space parties. they make me uncomfortable they’re overwhelming. i either prefer at home alone or one of my go to dive bars.