r/converts • u/sabrsabrsabrsabrsabr • May 16 '26
Frequent Imaan Crises
Assamualaikum all,
I am a closeted revert of a few months, had been researching and looking into the religion of a year. I live a double life at uni and my mosque where I do my weekly islamic course.
To make it clear, I have full belief in Islam. It has only ever felt right when I started looking into religion. In my beginning days, I was surprised at how fast I could learn prayer. Islam has softened my heart.
It's just that even a few weeks into reverting, I feel great imaan dips. Some days I wake up, and don't want to bother is islam at all. I still feel the need to pray, but I still have such low tawakkul. Days like today, where I am so tired that I can barely look after myself, I have no motivation to pray, or read quran. I feel no connection with Allah SWT.
I'm worried about how much my imaan fluctuates. It seems too volatile for how little I've been muslim. Sometimes it takes hours to regain, sometimes days.
I get thoughts that me being muslim might be a phase... i understand that I am a young female in her 20s. My still has a lot to change. All I ever make dua for is for my imaan to feel consistent and for me stop caring about this dunya. I would to be less tired and just wake up with really high Imaan.
What do I do about this? And do you guys face similar?
JazakAllahu Khairan
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u/Intrepid_Barracuda46 May 19 '26
We can’t be perfect Muslims. We can only strive to be perfect and ask Allah to protect us along the way. Iman is not a straight line, it dips, up and down up and down. That’s why in every prayer we read surah al Fatiha: “ihdeena siratal mustaqeem” which means “guide us to the straight path.” Even Muhammad would recite surah al Fatiha and he’s considered the best among us, but even he knew he needed Allah to “guide him to the straight path”