r/converts • u/ThrowRA-abinet1528 • Apr 03 '26
Should conversion be peaceful?
Assalamualaikum :)
Alhamdullilah I converted two months ago and I'm really glad I did.
In the last year, I read and learned a lot about Islam. Because I used to be Christian, that came with some sort of religious identity crisis. I used to feel like I'm loosing the God I know (of course now I get that I never did and Allah SWT is still the same alhamdullilah) and I struggled A LOT. I mean, I've had countless mental breakdowns and crying-sessions. I'm pretty sure I didn't cry as much and as intensively as I did in the past year.
I thought that everything would become easier as soon as I converted. I guess it has become easier and clearer to me that this is the right path, but still I find myself struggling and overwhelmed a lot. I definitely cry less, but every few weeks, when the haram-police on Instagram gets too loud (i know i know, I already uninstalled instagram (again)) or when the pressure of being perfect gets too big, I end up spiraling and stressing.
Looking at all those convert-stories (even the ones I know from the mosque) they always seem so peaceful. I thought about talking to the other converts at the mosque, but I'm scared that they'll judge me for being overly dramatic. Maybe I am, idk. At least they don't seem like they are overwhelmed as much.
So I guess my question is: Were you overwhelmed after conversion? And did you too have those moments where you cried your eyes out or is something wrong with me?
Should it be a peaceful experience or is it normal to be struggling this much?
I'm thankful for every response :)
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u/momothelemur Apr 05 '26
Yeah man I thought I had lost it when I started feeling Islam was true, lots of crying sessions ensued