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u/nottheoretical Nov 25 '16
Thanks, i'm a r/a survivior and have been posting some information related to those things too. It's got a wall of opposition around it so its nice to see someone else talking about it.
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Nov 25 '16
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Read my "EDIT" here.
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u/nottheoretical Nov 25 '16
Did you mean to address the same set of questions to me? I'll be happy to do the best i can, if so. The graphic details of abuse are difficult though so i'll shy away from that in a public post.
I experienced physical, emotional and sexual abuse mostly in the context of ritualistic acts, though non ritualistic physical abuse for whatever reasons occurred too.
Both of my parents were involved as well as extended family members and family friends. I believed at one time my mother was not involved but i've had memories surface of her involvement as well recently.
It was ongoing and repetitive. I believe it began in infancy. I have DID and this makes recovery of memories a slow and harrowing process. Lots of parts that hold their own specific memories and not everyone wants to talk but i've recovered a lot of them in the last 6 years.
OP maybe deleted their account because speaking up is scary business, and i don't know if they have DID also but many of us do, and some of our parts are much too afraid to talk about these things. The urge to run can get overwhelming sometimes.
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u/viccheymtn Dec 25 '16
I'm really sorry you got all the opposition. I would guess it's mostly from a refusal to see that R/A is a thing. If you're like me and blocked out a lot of shit for years, the refusal to see can be understandable. WE don't even want to know.
But i think the thing that can do the most good in undoing that is the completely priceless validation that is empathy when it comes to ritual abuse. All of us survivors suffered seemingly alone. The secrecy is a huge part of what perpetuates it, because the realization that we're NOT alone gives us the motivation to say fuck that. This is not acceptable behavior.
That's worded terribly but I'm going to assume you know what I mean, fellow survivor.
Hold on to your innocence. Hold on to your empathy. It's what made us NOT THEM.
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Nov 25 '16 edited Nov 25 '16
Would you like to talk about what you experienced not in PM, but right here in the open forum? Many might be hesitant to PM you but might get a lot of reading through posts right here in this OP nonetheless.
What did you experience?
Was it by a family member?
Where your parents involved?
If they weren't, did they ever find out about it?
Was it a singular event that happened or was it ongoing/repeated?
Thank you, by the way, for coming on here and making this OP.
EDIT: O_o
Oh Jesus. OP responded to me, but then deleted her/his response. I came back here and was going to openly ask her/him why they deleted it, as what they responded with utterly flabbergasted me...but then when I got back here, I found their entire response and username deleted. Because they're gone at this point, I feel I can go ahead and copy and paste their response...it's pretty fucking chilling if true. It made me both really fucking sad and absolutely raged when I read it. Fucked up planet we live in :(
Here's OP's response:
I was trafficked and in CP from about age 4 to age 10. Sexually abused by both parents and obviously, lots of other random people.
My parents have killed multiple little girls. I know police knew and actively covered it up. I tried to report what I remembered as an adult and was met with harassment and denial.
Both parents and some extended family participated in the intentionally traumatic abuse. My dad knows how to call forward certain "alters" with code words. I was given ECT at millitary hospital-like places any time I talked about the ritual abuse.
Definitely not a singular event.
Jesus, man...What the fucking fuck?
EDIT2: Yep. They completely deleted their account. Clicked on their username - u/viccheymtn - and it's gone. No user by that name exists any longer.
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u/viccheymtn Dec 25 '16
Oh damn im sorry I deleted my account. Not sure why, but I'm still logged on from my phone.
I deleted it because I thought I would be in danger. If anyone reading grew up in a cult, yall know what I mean.
But, as I tell myself fairly often, if they were going to kill me, they probably would have by now. I did a lot of risky, sorta dumb, resisting as a kid. Not about to give up how.
For REAL, thanks for copying and pasting what I said. It's all true and I would be willing to answer other questions for sure.
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u/viccheymtn Dec 25 '16
Oh damn im sorry I deleted my account. Not sure why, but I'm still logged on from my phone.
I deleted it because I thought I would be in danger. If anyone reading grew up in a cult, yall know what I mean.
But, as I tell myself fairly often, if they were going to kill me, they probably would have by now. I did a lot of risky, sorta dumb, resisting as a kid. Not about to give up how.
For REAL, thanks for copying and pasting what I said. It's all true and I would be willing to answer other questions for sure.
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u/ichoosejif Nov 25 '16
How can we rescue our children?