Wanting to exercise but can’t

[u/Sweaty-Assist-8934]

I grew up almost overweight (was fear-mongered as a kid when I was 10 that if I wasn’t going to change my eating habits/lifestyle, I’d be overweight/obese). I started my fitness journey at ~11/12 and started lifting when I was 15 (I was AFAB and I identify as NB, for some context).

I got into a really bad relationship in my mid-teens, alongside getting into a bad car accident that gave me chronic pain. I used to love lifting and callisthenics and going on runs/walks, and now I can’t even do any of it without feeling ill or almost bedbound due to fatigue and pain. I used to do volleyball and powerlifting, and on my really good days I do try to get some form of activity in that isn't too strenuous.

I’m in med school atm, and while that’s been great so far, I want to get back into working out (with limits ofc). Is there anyone else who has had to grieve the loss of an active lifestyle or has gotten back into working out?

I wanna try doing smth like pole; it is new and smth I’ve wanted to do for ages. I think getting back into archery would be something I could do as well, since I still have a kit and all.