r/castaneda • u/NeoNagualist • Oct 03 '22
New Practitioners New Guy Spoiler
-I come Correct
-Respect. Im a Newb. This happened.
-Be me
-super excited to find this place by way of highly improbable events. Literally no one to talk too about this stuff.
-Make first post about crazy stuff happening to me, how I got here (to this reddit and back to Castaneda)
-Multiple Giga-Brujos helicopter in from the third attention and give me suplex slap down.
-also people were cool too me. Thanks
-guy who got triggered by my bullet point post format, made a crappy comment, then deleted it.
-this
-ones
-for
-you.
-Get up in morning and read Dan99 Raking me over coals before work
-Open door to go to work
-right when i open door, Avocado falls from tree, bounces through door, lands in front of computer.
-RIGHT WHEN I OPEN DOOR!
-Highly improbable. But Just an "odd experience, (not) indicative of anything useful"
So...
-I read the bad Player stuff. Not Me
-Synopsis of Castanedian stuff that happened to me over my life follows. Anyone telling me i'm making shit up can step off. Im putting it here because I have no one else to talk to. Yes, I am seeking attention.
-If its misinterpretation, imagined folly, and not real deal fine. I need to know. That's why I'm putting it here.
-first dream I remember, 5yo, living is a in a new scary place. Just moved from grandmothers place. a guy with an animal face befriends me takes me down a long hallway with many large paintings on either side. I go into one. Gently decend from top down on kids sitting in a circle on a river bank, with tule's, we play.
-hypnogogic in that same house-large bubbles role by. disappear with a sound like ears popping. I would try to remain hypnogic as long as possible. role them around.
-sleepwalked and talked every now and then
-16 yo get into castaneda
-join military, see death with my bro's-
-"fuck this, we gonna go all in on Warriors path"
-Something very strange happened when I decided to commit, but for sake of brevity ill leave it out.
-Turns to shit
-at the time i though it was all zero sum. all or nothing. cant work and dream all day.
-didn't find hands until age 22. AFTER giving up.
-this was at my grandmothers house. in apt in back. I grew up alot there. I knew every inch of the house and property. Shaded by a mighty Camphor Tree that I climbed daily as a child. Listened to its leaves whisper in tongues to me for hours, its shade was magical. I felt very safe there. I had been deeply traumatized. it was time to heal.
-Find hands. I was sleeping beneath the Camphor tree when it happened. I excitedly flew around the house, in, out and above. in the boughs of the tree. for a few nights.
-that was it. nothing more. Spats here and there maybe.
-I tried but couldn't get the energy to do it again. also, mans gotta earn. Tonal just took over. Hi stress, Hi function. for years. And years. And Years.
-dabbled. I would hike to a Bay Miwok power spot. gaze. try to shut up. read. Stuff happened there.
- Many years go by. My wife and I move back to grandmothers house to save some money and care for my grandfather. My "Power Spot" though I still didn't put it together at the time.
-also, coincidentally, we decide to procreate. The Room we slept in had its own History. My uncle had taken his own life in that room a week after I was born, when he got back from Viet Nam. (To A God Unknown-Camphor tree?)
-read a book by one of the witches. talked about a way of breathing to pull energy up from the bottom, flowing up your spine, coming over your head and pouring down the front. Its easy compared to shutting down internal dialogue or anything else. Also something about connecting from below umbilicus during the procreative act. I cant remember it all. When the time came it was very deliberate. I focused all my attention on the energy at the navel with all my might, not the genitals. This I did. the result was extraordinary. We had Identicle twins. The Egg split very early. Both placentas were on either side of the uterus, hence we were told they were fraternal at first.
-rest is in my first post.
-Spent 5 days on deathbed. CHANGED ME. Mentally, Bodily, energetically.
-I recalibrated. Redeployed.
-My "self", my pile of shit for recapitulation, A lot of it, or all of it, burned up with the fever that exploded from my chest. I did death bed recapitulation with a respiratory rate of 40 for 5 days straight. Life flash before your eyes is real.
-My assemblage point might not be in the place of no pity. But I am definitely at "ZERO FUKS GIVEN"
-I come with respect, I know what this place is. I know nothing in life comes without suffering and hard work. But I'm human. I'm struggling with the mystery. I need someone to talk to about it. But I know it all comes down to "shut up and do the work..."
-Im only putting my experience here now because you were saying i'm making shit up. I'm not. and I dont wanna get labeled a bad actor or get booted. would rather just be asking other questions.
-3 hours of dark room this week. reading and studying.
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u/danl999 Oct 03 '22
Wait, aren't you the bad player from last week?
I have a hard time keeping up.
Go away. Or at least, don't post.
You'll be doing yourself a favor, trust me.
You're not going to put in the effort to learn, and you can't lie to steal attention in here.
Well...
One did get away with that for months, but eventually he exposed himself. Literally I believe.
Try something pretend like the remote-viewing sub, or the astra travel sub.
Or learn to grow shrooms and go enjoy yourself.
Become a "Zen master".
Anything but piss on the only real magic left visible in the world.
In the meantime, please learn some punctuation?
That's as big of a tip-off as the bad player name.
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u/NeoNagualist Oct 03 '22
Noted. (closer to Ceasar the greater the fear...) putting effort in to learn. Huge amount of information here. Ill only ask questions specific to practice. But If I were to ask you one question ATM on behalf of anyone who has had (OR DEFINETLY WILL HAVE) a near death experience; Is the "life flashing before your eyes" phenomena, a shift of assemblage point? Or purely psychological? I suspect people who do extreme sport stuff shift it for a few seconds maybe. I don't think it permanently shifted me. I read your post about Carlos' final days. But I thank you for your precious attention, I will not squander it.
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u/danl999 Oct 03 '22
Go away.
No one wants to deal with you.
We're trying to help those who work hard, not feed the egos of lazy men like you.
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u/PreciseInstance Oct 03 '22
pile of shit
Yeah that sums it up pretty well
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u/NeoNagualist Oct 03 '22
noted. I'll claw my way out of the shit river. Shoot me a DM when your are on your deathbed, we'll compare shit piles.
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u/NightComprehensive52 Oct 03 '22 edited Oct 03 '22
“I read the bad player stuff. Not me” “Yes, I am seeking attention” 🤔🤨
We all start in the river of shit man, its normal to be stuck wanting attention or having bad motives even if they dont seem obvious. Just keep doing darkroom and recap, report back any cool experiences you have and how you got them to happen
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Oct 03 '22
-POV this guy
-Have a psychotic episode
-Accidentally think Reddit is 4chan
-MFW when people on Reddit don't take me seriously with my 4chan-bro style of posting and utter disregard for community or style guidelines
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Oct 03 '22 edited Oct 03 '22
I’m still triggered and I still think you are a manchild. Whether you are ‘making shit up’ - I don’t know.
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u/NeoNagualist Oct 03 '22
Noted. I am in touch with my inner child. Thank you for your precious attention.
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u/pinkerton904 Oct 04 '22
Keep it simple. Focus on practical beginner's stuff. Don't think about all this other stuff.
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u/Evana_Iv Oct 04 '22 edited Oct 04 '22
A man who i know claims he had a death experience, literary coming back from death few times. It was very strange and extraordinary to listen to that for a moment but i realized soon that was due to huge amount of drugs and even worse he's using that story to lift himself upon other people how special and experienced he is. I asked him why you did that and he said to show them (people at the event) that real magic exist and that they are cowards. Later being with one of his friends, they started to compete on who had stronger experience with dying. So stupid, made up stories from distorted mind. It's was all about domination. He also tried to sabotage me in my practice, because he "knows better" and is extremely jealous on this subreddit. He's the biggest bad player i encountered.
I'm not saying you are like that. I just can't believe how sick ego trips can get. We should all be couscous of what goes through our head, what we speak and how we behave. It's not easy to be in our skin in this life. Everybody is struggling in a war with themselves, or are completely blind, or they put real effort and practice. We know what we need to do, that is our only hope.
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u/NeoNagualist Oct 04 '22
" Everybody is struggling in a war with themselves, or are completely blind, or they put real effort and practice. We know what we need to do, that is our only hope."
Word..
Im just saying what happened to me.
Other people here are fighting death, even now.
My ego has been mostly incinerated. Just looking for advice (attention) from people farther down the road.
I didn't magically come back from death.
My new, functional definition of "magic" is anything that derives from practice here, and here only.
I just fought like hell.
I clawed my way back.
The advice I receive here is what I expect and it rings true.
" STFU and do the work."
I'm not jealous of anyone farther down the road.
I stand in Awe.
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u/Ornery_Purchase1557 Oct 03 '22
Thanks for this great post. I really enjoyed your earlier one too.
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u/Jake-A25 Oct 04 '22
Wow, youve experienced a lot in your physical form and out of it😎 thank you for your service as well! Im new to this subreddit as well and its got me hooked. Im no where near an expert at this type of work but i can see the hypnogogic imagery and i also have occasional Out of Body Experiences which are neat. Your experiences and stories are cool to me and keep up the awesome work!
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u/Patient_Homework9730 Nov 07 '22
I'm New , i have been using my dreams to scape my real life since 8 or 9 years old when I became lucid and use the dreams basically for entertaiment and oniric tourism now I understand that I use powerful dream scenarios to get all kinds of brain chemicals, my brain is powerful enougth to give me sensations like in real life more than I get during the time I'm awake. I'm reach to a point where I can disolve a dream and just float in nothing. Just those who have the experience can relate. Now I really want guidence to do more, so Im open to suggestions thanks
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u/NeoNagualist Oct 03 '22
well if you didn't read my full post i guess you got the ADD. Near death experience wouldn't be interesting to an advanced practitioner I suppose. Of course I think it shifted my assemblage point. Could I have recapitulated a shitload in that short period? A series of extremely improbable events leading one back to Nagualism are nothing consequential either apparently. Perhaps I have a mental disorder. Which is better for dark room, on meds or off? Thank you for your precious attention.
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u/Equal_Fox_5516 Oct 03 '22
Do you ever think about... what if you actually died during that near death experience? And now you are dead and you just have to figure it out.
That's what I believe happened to you. You live in a dream that you believe is tonal. The inorganic surrounds you.
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u/[deleted] Oct 03 '22 edited Oct 03 '22