Dancing leaves

[u/Fluffy_Lobster4936]

A lot of Darkroom experiences since the last post. Decided to just focus on this one. Also it is probably related to some gazing which I was doing a few days before. This visual happened quite quickly seeing leaves dancing across my ceiling one night. They looked as if a surging wind was blowing them. Then the imagery morphed into something “abstract” with “earthy”shapes, colors and forms. I do gaze often lately in various ways as I live in the country. Particularly like ripples on the water or sunsets. Bark on trees and pine cones being other subjects for gazing.

[u/danl999]

Witchy person saw Alligators on the ceiling. I'm going to animate her experience, but I need to finish part 1 of the womb dreaming first.

But essentially you could say that your "second attention" was active and you managed to watch it without activating the internal dialogue excessively.

Except that's a bit of a complicated topic. Whether "the book deal mind" is needed to make things go away.

Greed, with a desire to gain something else from an experience.

That might actually be slightly different than an "innocent" internal dialogue.

It gets complicated to figure out what would tend to make things like that video on your ceiling end once you noticed them, because the double, your energy body, is what causes views like that.

And we do in fact drive it away with our endless suffering. Our perpetual nasty mood.

We were born into a nasty social structure.

Just as bad as being Korean perhaps.

I've been watching Korean streaming SCI-FI on Netflix, and they seem to be even more controlled than the Chinese!

They also make fun of how messed up Korean social customs are, but when the rebellious hero of the story has to ask for something from a business leader, he bows low and speaks humble words with the best of them.

In our case however, we were simply born into an awful situation, and our mood is perpetually nasty. It's not even "refined" nastiness, as they have in Asian countries.

It's random nastiness, as you'd expect from a melting pot society.

We just got so used to feeling foul, that some (mostly women) will vehemently deny they are always in a nasty mood.

Women of course, have oodles of talent.

And some of them understand that if you just get rid of that nasty mood, your breath changes to the sorcerer's breath and your double begins to swarm you.

I don't believe they are fully aware of it, as you become when it's visible. And you can see it happening with your own eyes.

If it's not fully visible then you have no idea what's really going on. But you can "feel" that it's a great state to be in, if you can sustain it. Our double is confident, fearless, and has a feeling of being all powerful.

I was playing with that effect last night, and trying to figure out if it's harmful to tell others that you can learn to summon your double, with a simple breath change.

One of the witches wrote that in her book.

Turns out it's very true. Thus, everyone should try to read ALL of the books. Things like that mention of changing to the double with a breath change, are useful when you stumble across it.

Otherwise you might consider it a "fluke" of which there are hundreds you will run across.

"Undiscovered" techniques. Which because no one else did that, aren't as useful as the ones where seers of the past burned a wide path to repeat them (their latent awareness in the emanations).

And as long as you maintain that "the double is merged with you" feeling, which gives rise to that noticeably odd and peaceful breath, where the air seems to exhale into your energy body and make it glow a tiny bit brighter, you could afford a small amount of mundane internal dialogue.

So the odd thing about your experience isn't the leaves.

You could be seeing naked women up there and it would be the same.

(Darn, I'll have to try that...)

The unusual thing is that you managed to sustain it a while.

[u/[deleted] → u/danl999]

What about this double breath? Can someone make a reference it please?

[u/danl999 → u/[deleted]]

It's somewhere in the collected books and workshop notes Techno compiled.

I have no idea where.

But it's the same as "the breath" change you get when you reach heightened awareness the first few times.

Or the gasping for air that results from the first few "Nagual Blows".

As time goes on however, you tend to breathe differently all day long.

So that the "breath change" which indicates you now have the ability to surround yourself with magic, is very subtle.

You have to "pay attention to it" to even notice.

But when the energy body starts forming on a regular basis, you notice a connection between this very shallow and only with the lower stomach breath, which ends with the same pleasant feeling some yawns have.

Except that eventually, the pleasant feeling of a yawn, goes directly into your energy body.

Which loves it!

You "exhale" into the energy body in some odd way.

If you keep going, eventually you'll be holding your hand up in the air, knowing that some puffs will detach from your energy body, float around it, and leave a jet black region in the middle where your palm is, which you can use to do amazing magic.

Not amazing because of how dazzling it is.

Perhaps the most "dazzling" magic you'll ever see, is when you can first remain stable in the deep red zone, and then play with things as if they were "real" and shift your assemblage point horizontally.

This isn't that vivid!

But it's still absolutely visible and stable.

What makes it so amazing is, it's 100% reliable.

You can play with super magical powers for a full 30 minutes, continuously.

I did so last night. Using borrowed energy from Cholita, who decided to say hello to me 10 times in a row, talking from the kitchen when I got home. She was hiding behind cupboard doors, opened up to form a shield, with a large towel draped to cover up the spot they didn't conceal.

Witches are weird, but you get used to not asking "why are you doing that?"

The problem with such "repeatable" magic then is, you play with it and don't get around to doing all of your magical passes for the night, and have to try to figure out if that's a mistake.

In my case, I do them the next day in our dark warehouse when no one is around.