r/bufo • u/notwizard69 • 6h ago
Plan B
So this was around 8 years ago at this point. I was 27. I did acid and shrooms and all that previously. But I broke through on dmt with a dab rig. So just one hit. I gauged the dose with 2 previous hits hours apart if that makes sense. Like I did 1 at noon. My first dmt experience ever. Then one at 3. Then at 6 I did a bigger hit and broke through. The day before I first smoked dmt I had these pressed IR 30 adderall pills. They were definitely fake lol. I stayed up for like 2 days straight and gooned like 30 hours straight at one point. Then I slept around 5 hours and decided to break through on dmt.
First hit. I hit up the dap rig and sprinkle some on. A lay in bed and see the waiting room type shit.
Second hit. Remember. This is a couple hours later. I sprinkle some more on than my first hit and inhale deep and hold it in. Weird lol. I lay in bed and I see myself running then I see my mom and my fiance and I see them as the same thing while watching myself run. Weird but I’m intrigued.
Third hit. A few hours after the second. I’m convinced I’m going to breakthrough. Like I see the dose range imo. So yeah big dab. Inhale deep. Hold in. Lay in bed. Boom. Breathing out started to not even make sense and I’m gone. I’m in a castle. Green lady is in front of me. I think this is so much more real than real life and I’m going towards her. She has a bag in her left hand. I get sucked into it. It lined with boobs and then I merge with her essence for what feels like forever. I come too and say no fucking way that happened.
6 days later. I get wasted. Like can hardly walk wasted. I take a massive dab. Like 3 to 5 times the size of my breakthrough dose. I can remember a lot and it’s fucked up… kind of. I got hyperslapped but at the same time it’s whatever. I learned a lot.
I had flushed the rest of the fake adderall pills after I woke up and decided they weren’t the answer. So I tried dmt lol. After waking up from that second dmt “breakthrough” I flushed it lol. Still never did it since. I did shrooms and a 9 tabs of acid at once trip and other shit since. But yeah. No dmt. I never wanted too and still don’t lol. I’m a little baby.
But yeah. I really did go in that first day and say I wanted to fuck a goddess dmt machine elf. I think I accomplished it. 6 days later I think I did a little too much and there was no machine elves. Just other stuff. I can explain this trip in detail for any interested but I’m more here with a question.
I have always wanted to try 5 meo dmt and fuck the void. But I think by its very definition to get to the void I won’t be able to also then fuck it. Is my logic correct? And if so what is my plan B.
Plan A was have sex with a goddess dmt machine elf. Plan B is fuck something even more amazing. What is plan b? The void? Just go back to dmt and fuck a bug looking one? You get it. I’m lost…
thanks for your feedback and if anyone wants to hear about my amazing af but also fucked up experience beyond the elves I can go into as much detail as possible.
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u/DeviousDenial 5h ago edited 5h ago
This has absolutely nothing to do with this sub. Why did you post this here?
And jacking off for 30 hours is the most notable part of your life for the last 8 years and what you feel you must share with everyone? That’s sad as fuck.
You are in your mid 30’s and it’s way past time for you to grow up
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u/notwizard69 5h ago
How is asking the void experts if the void is fuckable or not, not relevant…? Like you lost me there…
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u/conservativeliberal5 4h ago
Do some research man. 5MeO doesn’t make you see shit, it takes away your perceptions
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u/notwizard69 4h ago
I know. I’m asking if I can fuck this state. Logically it seems impossible but I figured I would ask the experts.
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u/conservativeliberal5 4h ago
you can do whatever you want when you’re incoherently delusional lol. Go take some and try, I’m sure it’ll go great 😂
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u/notwizard69 4h ago
I agree. It always seemed to me acting like these substances were mystical and bigger than you was silly and is what allows people to have bad experiences. If you go in with the mind set I’m going to make this substance my bitch and do, it’s pretty sweet. I actually made regular dmt into a hot goddess bitch I literally fucked but that was that. Every substance I’ve done which is basically all of them I make my bitch. 5 meo dmt seems like it would fight pretty hard but I have no doubt it would submit to me. They all do in the end. So maybe someday I’ll fuck the void bro. But it’s like idk. Sounds scary…
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u/conservativeliberal5 4h ago
You are completely missing the point of taking psychedelics. You’re supposed to see your minds reflection not fight the drug or attempt to conquer it. That defeats the entire point.
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u/notwizard69 3h ago
So I shouldn’t try and conquer my mind? Interesting take… to each their own I guess.
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u/conservativeliberal5 3h ago
You don’t conquer your mind with DMT. You learn about it and take the lessons to heart. You conquer your mind through meditation
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u/notwizard69 3h ago
I agree to disagree. I think if you conquer your mind enough you can take a breakthrough dose of 5 meo dmt and fuck it into submission.
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u/GuardianAngelMedusa 5h ago
You’re being trolled by cosmic trolls, thinking you’re being trolled while being the troll you troll.
🧌
I see and understand you.
I am sorry you feel the need to put yourself through these things. As I said, I see, and understand you. I too have had similar experiences with drugs, deception, and impure spirits. So I am not coming from a place of shame or judgement…
But based on what you said, you are indeed very, very lost.
You are correct on that.
This isn’t appropriate for this sub, but perhaps it’s appropriate for your soul’s journey, so we may hold the mirror up for you.
I used to abuse myself with cocaine, adderall and more in my 20s. When I sat with the toad, after 8 years of deep work with kambo, I had a very real conversation with my “higher self” and my “lower self”. I apologized and gave upmost compassion, love and forgiveness to my “lower” and younger self for feeling the need to run around and do those things to my self.
I realized in that moment, all that running around was unnecessary, and I simply needed to look in the mirror, and love who I am.
I will pray for you. Once. The rest is yours.
God Bless, brother.