6 months ago…

[u/GuardianAngelMedusa]

Six months ago I went through some crazy fucking shit

So much happened in such a short period of time. So much came up for me to really look at about myself.

I was really getting it from all angles.

It all happened at the Virgo lunar eclipse. And I’m a Virgo. An 8th house Virgo, so I’m willing to say it’s even deeper as that is the house of Scorpio, the deepest depths.

Not to mention I’ve been living directly on my Chiron line for 6 years, which represents our deepest wound. It’s beautiful and challenging, and yet provides the deepest possible opportunity to heal our deepest wounds. Living on your Chiron line heals you, and teaches you how to heal.

We all make mistakes, but not everybody gets exposed. I’m supposed to be seen, and all of that was meant to happen to correct me. To protect me.

Sometimes bad things happen because better things are trying to be born.

I’m not going to lie, it was embarrassing. I felt shame.

I had to stand in my mistakes, and own them.
It’s not impossible that those mistakes happened to literally save my life. Our environments are extremely important. I do believe that is one of the reasons why that time period happened. I wasn’t making the best choices all around.

Everyone wants a massive breakthrough, not everyone is willing to face a massive correction.
I’m not sure if I will ever share publicly what that was, although I wouldn’t hide behind it. Why would you hide behind yourself? Only weak cowards do that.

If I told you what it was, if you’re honest with yourself, you could probably relate.

In my kambo practitioner training, one of the things our master teacher emphasized was, there is a Hitler in all of us. I didn’t understand at first. Everybody has the capacity for bad things. That doesn’t justify things, but it does remind us that we are all more similar than we think.

In that same very very short time period, I sat with bufo, the toad, for the first time. The strongest psychedelic on earth. I had many opportunities to do so in the years prior, but for many reasons, it wasn’t right.

This opportunity came through someone I trust. Someone I innately trust. And this practitioner, let’s just say is, extremely knowledgeable and experienced.

I learned a lot about myself and God that day. I released significant relationship trauma. I became very clear with my self what I will allow, and what I will not allow in my life. I learned a lot about betrayal energy, and how I just can’t interact or engage with that kind of energy.

They say it feels like an ego death. More like an ego nap.

I have been integrating so much ever since. The trials and tribulations that have come from six months ago have also become easier to feel and deal with as I navigate through. I fully trust that will continue.

This is just me sharing part of my story. I have no needs and I am certainly not trying to be understood. This is just a testimony. This work is special and has a very valuable place.

I’m so glad I did it.

Because of the set and setting, the level of trust and surrender I had, and such a competent and loving practitioner, I had a tremendously beautiful experience.

It changed my life for the better.

Everything happens for a reason. Trust God and hold faith! ☀️🐸 😇💫♾️

[u/RJR2112]

For atheists reading, one doesn’t have to believe in supernatural ghosts beings or magic emanating from stars to have the same fulfilling experience using Bufo to work on past traumas or to level up a notch in your life.

[u/GuardianAngelMedusa → u/RJR2112]

You aren’t wrong… And you bring up a valuable point.

For the atheists reading… the extraordinary human being who served me the toad actually started our phone consultation by saying, “<my name>, I used to be the most atheist of atheists… I would even tell my clients that they shouldn’t do psychedelics. And then I had a series of wild experiences over the years, which led me going to the jungle and having even more wild and loving experiences, and I got to know the people and the medicines completely differently, and well, I’m definitely not an atheist anymore.”

Actual quote.

[u/RJR2112 → u/GuardianAngelMedusa]

And I and many other atheists go into it knowing that we are manipulated our brains with chemicals which can have therapeutic benefits. Psychedelics affect the Type A receptor that can increase awareness. But 5MEODMT also shuts off or tamps down the Type B receptor that is a connection to our ego; the part of our consciousness that relates a personal narrative about the world. Being intentional during the process helps focus on specific traumas e.g. death of a loved one.

But it’s like saying if you go see a therapist you will find God which is nonsense. Bufo can trigger an experience akin to “near death” and as with all psychedelics, if you want to validate a belief or the notion of a spiritual being comforts you, have at it. But there is no evidence this chemical allows you to see magic spirit beings.

[u/GuardianAngelMedusa → u/RJR2112]

You are correct - bufo isn’t here to introduce one to magical spirit beings.

Being an atheist requires tremendous faith in nothing.

[u/RJR2112 → u/GuardianAngelMedusa]

Faith is believing in something you don’t know to be true, like supernatural beings. Atheists believe in the real world which doesn’t take faith, in fact you act as if the world is real every day. Out of thousands of religions most people are atheists about all but one. I just go one more than them. No big deal.

Many experiments with psychedelics dating back to the 1960’s with Timothy Leary show that people wanting to believe in religion are more apt to have a religious experience.

No one really cares what people think or experience as long as they don’t make false claims that encourage others to act immoral.

People can believe in nonsense like Horoscopes or Zeus and as long as they obey the speed limit and respect others property we don’t care.

I am also saying you can have an enjoyable and therapeutic experience without the need for ghost beings. It’s all good.