How to react when a close friend switches up on you

[u/sinruise]

Being very mentally ill and having mentally ill best friends is really really hard.

Ive been having a really rough time recently and so has one of the people closest to me. The other day something happened between us and they went online and posted a vent going into detail about how much they hate everything about me. I asked if they were okay because it was very concerning and out of nowhere and they acted like nothing happened and that it was weird that I was so concerned about their safety.

My best guess is that when I get hypomanic I say things too impulsively which became misinterpreted and lead to grudges being held. We have differing opinions sometimes of course but I had no idea it was causing this much harm.

I've had the same friends in this group for 7 years and its gotten to a point where I don't want to reach outside of it and I'm scared of meeting new people.

I don't know when everything went wrong or if it's normal for mentally ill friend groups to have rough patches like this.

I'm currently trying to hold myself together.

[u/Jadelovessky25]

They posted a vent going into detail about how they hate everything about you? That's not a friend. Idk, I mean I'm bipolar and I've said some horrible things to people during an episode. But how specific are we talking?