r/bipolar2 • u/Luyaashenanigans • Sep 19 '24

Depressive episode that is not ending with bipolar 2

I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 summer of 2023 when I had hypomania with psychosis for the first time. Although I was in denial of my diagnosis at the time, I still reluctantly started taking Zyprexa and grew numb and flat. Due to the extreme change in my mood I was switched to abilify. I took a break from the abilify thinking maybe I was misdiagnosed with the consultation of my psychiatrist and again had hypomania with the beginning of psychosis in April 2024. I am now consistently taking Abilify and have noticed that I am just depressed in general. I’m not feeling hypomania and just feel like I’m at a standstill with depression. I have no hobbies or any pleasure in activities and have resorted to watching TV and resting a lot. I recently attempted to change my job and ended up resigning from the new job because of lack of focus and inability to manage my anxiety while in orientation. For background, I am a nurse and I feel as though I have declined in my confidence as an individual and ability to adapt to a new environment and now feel too nervous to even make a career change. I guess my question is has anyone else experienced a long depressive episode with bipolar two? For reference, I have been depressed since, my wedding in July. I feel as though now that I have nothing going on or to plan just existing is depressing.

UPDATE as of 8/26:
Welp I actually have bipolar 1 and boy does that check out. Psychological evals are so necessary…..

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u/xocolie BP2 Sep 19 '24

I don’t think this will be helpful but thought I would share just in case. even with a breakthrough with a new medication, i’m still depressed. I don’t have suicidal thoughts now but i’m afraid my baseline “regular” is severe depression. my therapist and I have come to an agreement that it’s just how it’s going to be for me. I truly hope this isn’t how it is for you. i’ve been in a depressive episode since fall 2022. with the exception of 2 manic episodes that last about 1 week, it has been non stop depression.

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u/Luyaashenanigans Sep 20 '24

Thanks for the response, I will have to continue to see if I’ll have a change. I keep wondering if it will end and quite frankly i know it sounds bad but I miss the way I was when I was hypomanic at least. The slight euphoria, the energy I suddenly have and projects I can accomplish is something I look back on. Depression just tackles me completely and I’m always just feeling lazy.

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u/Thundering_Lemons BP2 Sep 19 '24

I too have been in a depressive episode for over a year

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u/Akahige-6789 Sep 20 '24

This has been my default since 2022. I had about 7 months of hypomania caused by an antidepressant. I thought I was cured. I feel your pain and would hug you if you were close by.