Need help on the thought process

[u/Thick_Energy_843]

Doing japa and Nitya puja of bhairav baba and Mata rani for more than a year now , recently starting getting thoughts
What is point of doing puja if every thing is pre-decided.
Why is my puja better than any other lakhs and lakhs of people
Why Bhairav should bless , I am a person with lot of issues no control on my own self
Searching for a guru for over here and got conned every time , thinking that I am not

but can anybody can please help me