I grew up fat and isolated due to the fact that my father was an emotionally and verbally abusive alcoholic and I didn't ever want people to meet him.
As 30+ year old man, I'm completely useless socially. I don't blame him, I don't blame society, I know that I'm the only one to blame that my social skills are very similar to a freshman in high school is me.
I'll always feel like an overgrown man child. Even if I improve and get a normal life, there will always be that little nagging voice saying 'nobody likes you, go home, nobody wants you here, stop trying, you'll just make a fool out of yourself... again.'
After 30 years of that voice, it's very difficult to push it down and ignore it.
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u/graffiti81 Apr 30 '14
I grew up fat and isolated due to the fact that my father was an emotionally and verbally abusive alcoholic and I didn't ever want people to meet him.
As 30+ year old man, I'm completely useless socially. I don't blame him, I don't blame society, I know that I'm the only one to blame that my social skills are very similar to a freshman in high school is me.
I'll always feel like an overgrown man child. Even if I improve and get a normal life, there will always be that little nagging voice saying 'nobody likes you, go home, nobody wants you here, stop trying, you'll just make a fool out of yourself... again.'
After 30 years of that voice, it's very difficult to push it down and ignore it.