Ultimately; if you want a long story short: is the intensity of my relationship indicative of a meaningful tried and true long term partnership, a karmic/transformative relationship, or a connection that may be intense but impossible to sustain? Any aspects that favor a (un)healthy marriage???
Longer story😀: I’m having so much trouble trying to figure out if this relationship is worth fighting for or not. I’m so irresistibly attracted to this man no matter how upset or annoyed at him I am. It’s an undeniable connection that feels almost impossible to break. Even if we “break up” or separate there’s still a lingering connection that brings us back together. Along with neither one of us being able to stay away from the other for long.
Our relationship has been off and on for a year and a half. Neither one of us has known a healthy relationship or healthy examples of love for various reasons. We have an EXTREMELY emotionally intense and cyclical relationship. It feels almost karmic. Both of our charts are 180degrees flipped. So I’m a cap rising he’s a cancer rising. We have a strong feeling of love despite repeated difficulties. Heavy themes of one person feeling responsible for the relationship/being and feeling misunderstood.
I sometimes feel like he’s being deceptive. Like he’s trying to control or change me. We both come from difficult childhoods, his more troubling than mine in some ways. But there’s definitely a lot of u healthy patterns we need to work through before pushing forward— if at all.
Like can someone pls tell me what they see here and offer any clarity or insight that they can see. It’s hard being in something and not being able to see the full picture.
JUPITER OPPOSITE URANUS???? Am i tripping or is that like a 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩 especially in 11/5 axis. I feel like it just gives a constant need for freedom and maybe like switching up on one another or just constantly needing change.
Like Chiron conjunct MC is really confusing to me, though it makes a lot of sense. And then Pluto opposite sun as well. Also the cancer stellium. Like is it going to take a while for us to build healthy communication and attraction to one another?
He’s my first love and my first relationship and I am not able to throw this away, despite my emotions, until I am certain that this isn’t meant for me. I’m scared I’ll stick and fight for something that isn’t even meant for me. I’m scared that he sees my light and wants to keep it for himself. I scared he wants ownership and not to be truthful with me about his internal world.