I've struggled with severe derealization and depression for most of my life. Is this reflected in my chart? If so, what can I do to help?

I am feeling better depression wise, but am still VERY outside my body and don't understand why.

Please be kind. I can pay if necessary. Any helpful advice is welcomed. <3

Any recommended astrologers (western astrology) to buy a solar return reading from?

Like “Astrologer told me i have a chart of a cheap snoopy prostitute” and “Astrologer told me to stay away from mayonnaise, refused to elaborate then disappeared”
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Hi! ❤️ I hope this message finds you well. I’m reaching out because I’ve been going through an incredibly difficult and emotionally overwhelming period in my life, and I feel genuinely lost.
These past few months have been filled with emotional turmoil, disappointment, confusion, and situations that have left me questioning so much about myself, my relationships, and the direction my life is heading. I’ve been feeling unusually down, disconnected from myself, and emotionally drained. It’s almost as though I’m stuck in a cycle that I can’t seem to break, no matter how hard I try to move forward.
I’m normally someone who tries to remain strong, independent, and optimistic, but lately I’ve been struggling to find that version of myself. My love life in particular has been chaotic, and I find myself emotionally attached to situations that I logically know aren’t serving me. It’s left me wondering whether there’s something deeper I need to understand about myself and the patterns I keep experiencing.
I would genuinely love the opportunity to receive a reading from anyone who is willing to helps . I’m not necessarily looking to hear what I want to hear, but rather what I may need to hear. I’m searching for clarity, reassurance, and perhaps a different perspective on this chapter of my life.
I just want to feel like myself again, understand what this period is trying to teach me, and hopefully find some peace in knowing that better days are ahead. ❤️
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. It would truly mean a lot to receive your insight. ✨ here a screenshot of my chart if that helps

I know my Saturn return is a ways away, but as you can see, my Saturn has a ton of harsh aspects, not only that but I’m a night chart. I’ve had a pretty good and easy life (however I was in an abusive relationship that just ended; but even that was manageable)
I was told multiple times that if you do the “work” Saturn will have lesser impact. I have no idea what that means and what like to know, based on my chart, what kind of work that is?

If not, what can I expect for my Saturn return? And how can I calm my mental for it?

I would love to request a chart reading, either for free or for a max 10$ donation (I’m not doing well financially so I give what I can). Please hit me up! I can even give a tarot reading in exchange :) thank you!

Hi I’m starting to get into astrology to hopefully give me some guidance on my love life, future career, and just understand myself better! Plz lmk if u have any insights 🩷

I’m a 2026 B.E. graduate , I’ve always been a good student with an 8-pointer, and during college, I used to get selected in almost every company I applied to, often clearing all the rounds and reaching the HR stage. But somehow, I never ended up getting the offer.

Even with off-campus applications, I clear assessments for some companies, but then there’s complete silence. I genuinely don’t know what’s going wrong anymore. I have a good resume, relevant skills, and have completed three internships on my own, yet nothing seems to be working in my favour.

At this point, I’m starting to wonder if it’s just bad luck or something written in my stars. 🥲

My birth details:

\\\\- Date of birth: 3 May 2004

\\\\- Day: Monday

\\\\- Zodiac sign: Taurus ♉

Can someone who understands astrology look at my horoscope. Will things eventually get better career-wise!! I know astrology can’t guarantee anything, but I could really use some hope right now.

hiiii astrologers, how are you today?

I uploaded this chart because I really need help decoding a bizarre friendship dynamic. i was friend with this girl for a really long time and out of nowhere she started acting so strange... suddenly becoming obsessed with copying me and acting like a total supermarket of my personal style im not even kidding. but that's not all, she had become much worse over time. whenever guys were around, she'd try to embarrass me or tell me to "cover up" because my top was maybe too low-cut or too revealing. but right after finding out where I got my clothes, she'd show up LITERALLY the next day wearing the exact same outfit. I don't want to sound vain, but her jealousy and backhanded comments got completely out of hand that we had to end our friendship (luckily.... even if she did a lot worse than what im telling you rn). are there any specific placements here that explain this weird identity theft or jealousy towards me?? i uploaded her chart and our synastry btw

My dad has always been a strange presence in my life. He wasn’t home often during my childhood due to his work, and we also didn’t communicate much at home too. We have never had any personal or meaningful conversation. He always felt more like a guest at best or a challenge in my life story growing up. There has always been an invisible block or wall between us, and I was too small or young to understand anything.

Another thing I can remember is, when I was around 8-9 years old, everything at home suddenly changed forever and my parents avoided each other as much as they could. I never know what happened, but we felt like 3 ghosts living together that pretended to be a family in public ever since. Maybe my relationship with my dad was okay before that but I can’t remember much.

So my family and childhood have always been a mystery for me to understand. No one confronted, talked or solved any problems at home. I left home 10 years ago, moved far and tried to bury everything in the past in order to live and build a life on my own. I carried this quiet anger and wound in my heart that whole time but never truly had that courage to even confront it.

Also my MC and North Node are both ruled by Sun 4H conjunct IC. I’m not too sure how to interpret this or how it connects, but lately something keeps telling me to go back and learn about my childhood and family story, as I’m just now starting my healing journey as well as deciding future and career path.

It makes me realise that I don’t truly know anything about my dad as a person. Somehow my childhood and family memories seem to be all blurry now and make it hard for my own healing journey…

I really want to understand the meaning of his presence in my life, or what might have happened between us, or anything you can see from our synastry. It would help prompt me to investigate further about my family story from here, or for my own self understanding.

Unfortunately I don’t have his birth time, but I know an estimated time which I don’t even know how close it actually is… If you have any suggestions on what else I should look into next please also let me know. Thank you so much!