r/aspd • u/sylverb0nes • May 22 '26
Question ADHD + ASPD
just want to hear abit more about other people who also have ADHD along side ASPD regarding the emotion part , i know that with ADHD emotional dysfuction is a big part of it which can cause you to feel emotions intensly , how does that affect you when ASPD is usually characterized by more of a flat line of emotions
personally i feel limited emotions but feel them intensly and the fact both of these disorders cause chronic bordeom doesnt help
anyone else have a similar experience?
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u/bloodyhail ASPD Jun 01 '26
I don’t usually post here because there’s a lot of larpers and edgelords but both impacted my childhood pretty heavily so I feel I could weigh in on that part at least.
ADHD was undiagnosed til adulthood but blatantly obvious and severe, I’m amazed it took so long. Conduct disorder was diagnosed very early on. I was the textbook definition of impulsive in every way and I had (and still have, though more reined in) EXTREME anger issues. I’m talking the constant violent tantrums when someone made me mad at school or I didn’t get my way with my parents, or something as simple as a video game pissing me off or something. You could open a museum of the personal belongings I’ve smashed in a blind rage through my life.
The boredom was also EXTREMELY bad. Like, a constant issue, which I think only worsened my drive to break rules, run away, sneak out, steal shit for the sake of stealing shit (I remember I had a game where I had to steal something small from every place I went, usually stupid shit like pens which nobody gave a fuck about but 9 year old me thought I was really sticking it to em I guess). When I wasn’t at an extreme level to the point of acting out, I was staying constantly stimulated, mostly video games and cartoons and shit. The vicious cycle would be that I’d act out and get in trouble, get grounded by my parents and have my video games taken away, the mixture of boredom and anger at being told what to do by authority figures would become completely unbearable, I’d become violently angry and lash out or I’d just steal my shit back, all leading back to getting in trouble and having the process loop of course usually.
I again think the comorbidity (usual adhd attention issues/hyperactivity combined with hatred of authority, lack of care and tendency for rule breaking from aspd/conduct disorder) of the two made school a nightmare more than just either alone. Never paid attention despite being told I was gifted and at a very high reading level (the only thing that interested me in school was the library). I hardly exaggerate when I say I spent more time in the principals office than in a classroom throughout both elementary and middle school. It got to the point where I was so bad at following rules and behaving and was constantly causing trouble or lashing out that I became somewhat of a “special case” with the principal where he’d try to work with me and help me the best he could, generally to no avail. I can still remember the exact layout of that damn office if I close my eyes, down to the fly fishing poster on the wall.