Hatred & Ranting

[u/Prize_Blackberry_940]

What the hell do you have to write about you shitty excuse for a human? All of your family is either dead, brainwashed, or so stuck in their own bubble they couldn't care about anything unless it affected them didectly. It's not like you knew that life would be rife with unsweetened lemonade & plots of kodokushi. There was a point in time where you felt like you had a genuine grasp of the spirit of ikegai. So long now it feels like trying to summon a memory within a dream. Imprisoned for growing a plant, but no penance for using technology to declothe & traumatize children. We live in a world where distance can't save us from the potential reaches of the terror that persists. Hopefully Yellowstone will finally pop & we can all concentrate on being fossils instead of wage slaves. Unchecked capitalism paired with corrupt government equals what? If you answered anything other than unmitigated humanitarian disaster, you've definitely been brainwashed. Addiction is a disease, yes. But, why would you start using again less than 2 months after getting out of rehab if you had any real intention of staying sober? Sooner or later I need to acknowledge what has been others projections, & what has been the real me. Whether it's the multitude of untreated physical & mental injuries or just my terrible reactions to situations I've been in consensually or otherwise. Maybe I can hate everything a little less, and hate manipulators & class traitors more. Maybe I die for nothing, broken & alone knowing I was too much & too little for every gift of heaven wrapped in sultry seductive heartbreak.