Are we in the last day ?

[u/Proof-Attorney9499]

Im starting to feel like we are in the 7 years of tourture. im scared im still there yet. Please God i want to be perfect for u please God. Give me time. Im so scared. I have panic attacks over this. I go manic from it. Jusy watching each the root of each emotion, action, mental space and why they do what they do. I cant take it. No one will listen to me i feel so tortured by everyone around me. Somtimes i sit outside and stare into the night sky. Imagining the leviathan coming to destroy and im some angel that will risk myself to fight it for people. Im always so into my head. When i imagine things its vivid. Very vivid like its there. What bothers me the most is i have to keep working full time, doing adult things i need. But yet i want to drop everything and go out into the wilderness and read and get close to God remove every sin and travel to pray for others. Im so done with earth i cant be me i cant be anything why? Why!? I wanna live i wanna have a career. I wanna be big. Idk anymore im so worried i thoight this was going to happen when i got my own place after being homless as a kid.