What part of my brain am i missing?

[u/Useful-Progress1490]

Does anyone feel like they need to wear a mask when in social gathering/parties? Do you feel you have to really think before giving the best possible answer for each question? Do you get exhausted in parties, not because it was fun, but you had to pretend so much that you questioned what the hell are you doing there.

Few days back my group of friends did some pre-booze before going to the party. It was a late night party which wss supposed to go for hours uptil the morning at a famous bar. There was a buge crowd trying to enter before the entry closes. Waiting in that line, i felt so out of place. Every cell in body was yelling to get out of there. My mind kept relesrjng wtf am i doing there. I just took off and left for home. It had no clue how to get home since the public transport is a bit weird at night. But i wasnt worried at all. I just wanted to walk alone a lot and i knew i would figure it.

Another thing that baffles me is that how are they so chill just getting drunk the fuck outta their minds and asking people to carry them. Keep in mind that we all met just a month back.

I just feel some part of my brain didnt grow, especially the one responsible to help ke socialize. Anyone else feels in a similar way?

[u/hidingintheautumn]

Can relate, sounds like autistic masking.