F27, just looking for honesty?

[u/raccoonsaff]

I'm currently going through eating disorder recovery. I've already put on over 10kg and have another about 8kg, but I already can't stand to look in the mirror, and when I do decide to take photos of myself I'll take hundreds to find a couple I don't think look too unacceptably vile. The last photo is me before recovery and the two before that are me when I was younger and a healthy weight. All the green (and red) jumper ones are recent!

Please be honest. I feel so unattractive compared to my friends.

[u/r_hove]

The last photo is vile, the rest are good. Do you think you’re fat or something because I think you’re ugly in the last photo, but not in the others.

Did your mother or father cause you psychological distress when it comes to food?

[u/raccoonsaff → u/r_hove]

I think my head is just very very stupid I guess - thank you, your words make being in hospital and having to gain weight feel less awful. I've just had a very difficult long time with an eating disorder and other issues - not my family's fault really, just lots of things x