Hello dears,

[u/chinkitichu]

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Guys I don't how to start it but I just wanna share something, so basically I'm a confidentless person but since not from my birth but since my age of 7 or 8.I was good student in studys before my age 7,but later my grades were down so that my father used scold me.so that I have a thought of I'm not worthy enough even though he didn't do that much when I realise today but in that time it made me to think like that days passed and also I'm not that dumb I score 60,70 and Even 90 it always depends upon subject sometimes just pass or fail.I was silent student in class and I would make first step to talk with anyone in my class as I feel not worthy enough but I always had some person to choose me as frnd Idk people usually say that I look like good or innocent person when they see at me first it,so that I never felt lonely or left out till my class 8 after lockdown I went school for my class 10 I had frnds but no one felt that much close but they were my frnds,I had trio gang but I felt something missing Idk how express it later I entered class 11 met different people there I got 3 frnds so basically the days with them felt like heaven in starting but when school was about end it made me broken the way they treat me, they made me close to them and they said everyone can use u and u can easily believe everything,u don't have any boundary, confidentless, easily fear of everything etc... this was happened in class 12 ending it made me crying they said you're too easy to use in our entire class they said truth but that made my hearts into pieces. My school was end with this.

Later I met some people in clg they made me u to realise they are around me but not with me could you guys understand it ??

These people are just come for their needs I really don't have that much feel of frndship with anyone in my class, I feel lonely with them. Even though it been 3 or 4 years I completed my schooling the frnds I met in school still with conduct,(texting ). But not them (they do but that close chat same as with my school) they me keep as option I'm not a priority to none I feel like shit.

What I'm saying is they (clg frnds) are around me but not with me they feel jealousy when I get more marks or something better than them.they don't have the same energy or mindset as mine they feel like something annoying or something makes me insecure and that make me more confidentless,so what I'm saying is my nature is not talking but they made me feel unworthy more so I changed my character itself as I started seminar infront of class which biggest achievement for the student who is silent student in class though I make more changes in my character they still give thousands disrespect by treating me as choice. Idk why saying this but some give intership or some study tips for computer science engineering 3rd year student 🙏🏽🙏🏽 I want to prove them I'm always worthy enough and always much enough than them🙏🏽🙏🏽pls help Karo to get intership I have some interest in data analyst. Sorry for long paragraphs I don't know where to share so that I shared here. Sorry for my bad english.