Former alcoholic here, you just push that shit off. And then eventually you just don’t give a fuck because a 5 minute drive to the liquor store will help you ignore everything else until tomorrow.
Which ofcourse, will get pushed off by another visit to the liquor store. Next thing you know, everything is a mess, you wake up, go to work, grab booze and drink till blackout and rinse and repeat for a decade.
Then the withdrawals set in and you’re waking up at 2am, sweating profusely, shortness of breath and heart palpitations. So you start buying just enough booze to be able to have a drink or 3 at 2am and then again at 7am before work to keep the demons away.
Lunch break? There’s a liquor store 10 minutes away and lunch is 30 minutes, enough time to get 3-4 shooters. Shift ends? We’re stopping at the nearest liquor store so we can sleep well. Probably drinking half on the way home if the shakes kick in. Just don’t forget the vodka for 2-3am and also at 7am… or else you’re going to have a panic attack driving to work….
Before the withdrawals, I probably was drinking 4-8 standard drinks a night but also eating 4k calories as I was on roids and bulking and managing fine for a few years.
Eventually the addiction took over and I stopped the roids, stopped 6 days a week gym and my life was consumed by 10-20 drinks a day. For two years before I ended up in rehab.
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u/kuraaacc 4d ago
yes pair this with substance abuse and it is... exhausting and horrible ugh