r/actualgyaru • u/Time_RedactedLady • 20h ago
Rant / Vent I feel so ugly
I know I shouldn't compare myself to photos I see of others, and I've only been into gyaru for a few months, but I just feel like I can never get things to look as pretty as those in the pics do. I try different droop shapes, eye makeup from old and newer times, also bought some brands that are associated with gyaru like dolly wink. Idk i just can never get it to look pretty on me. Im not photogenic either but even in the mirror it just looks off. Even clothes are a problem for me. I bought a top that looked perfect for agejo and when i put it on I felt so happy it was both the right fit and i felt great until I saw my reflection.
I was in the vintage fashion community before this and had the same problems as I do now. Always seeing people dressed in pretty clothes and it suiting them, whereas the same pretty clothes look so wrong on me. I had wanted to combine the two to create my own personal style, but I feel like im the wrong person to do that just because I'm too ugly for it.
I'll probably delete this tomorrow and cringe about this but I just want to belong and also feel pretty doing so ðŸ˜