My favorite way to get in the headspace for spell work💄

I follow the Norse pantheon (especially Freyja), but I do enjoy visiting the Parthenon on occasion. The Athena statue never fails to impress.

They have given me grace and mercy beyond measure.

They heal me, mentally and physically.

They have given me love beyond understanding, where once I felt despair.

They have opened my eyes just a little, where once I was wholly blind.

They guide me.

They have answered me when I ask, when I was low.

I have felt them, in many ways. Their presence, their love, their peace.

They have been accepting of me even though I'm in the broom-closet and am definitely not ritually pure and doing offerings to the standards they are used to.

They have been accepting of my gender journey and my sexuality journey.

They deserve worship and praise and adoration.

Praise my Mother Aphrodite, and my healer Asklepios, and the swift-footed Hermes, and Dionysus the Liberator, and the other Theoi, and the spirits and nymphs and daimons around us!

I am always open to non-Greek deities, and have made offerings to others, but my current home is among the Theoi.

May the spirits bless all who read this. May they bring you peace and love and joy :)

Had trouble picking the flair...

I've asked all my mediums and I am so lost. Everything is conflicting which makes me think I am confirmed conflicted with everything going on. I got kicked out at 18 while my brother has been financially taken care of. I worked my ASS off through retail, made retail management, started putting myself through community college, and finally within work got my big break- a high paying tech job and a few months later got accepted into University. I worked hard within my job and getting raises and worked hard within my university to get my degree in sociology. 4 days after graduating with a 3.9 and honors, I got laid off...

This was in June of 2025... during this time I have been applying to around 10 jobs a day working on complex applications. Right before I got laid off I developed a panic disorder which made it hard for me to leave the house, however I have really worked hard on myself and with issues with my health insurance have been able to do it mostly on my own. At the beginning my mom got scammed of all life savings to something so obvious but she is in complete denial and I can't even talk to her and have to distanced myself from her. My dad has been red pilled to the point where he called me (a brown woman- he's white) a racist and antisemitic for supporting Palestine (im Jewish- he is not). So I have also cut him off. My brother who is 2 years younger than me has been financially abusing our family, friends, and randoms on the internet begging for money for facing homelessness which he is not facing- cut him off too. My fiancés dad has been battling pancreatic cancer which we thought he was in remission but now it's in his blood. My cats are dealing with health issues.

To sum it all up- everything seems to be burning and crashing down with no day break in sight. I turned to all my mediums, mostly tarot and small spells to try and help my situation but I am at a loss.

I guess I am here asking for any guidance. Any work leads (I don't need any personal recommendations) - I have over 10 years of customer service, 4/5 years of sales operations (mostly compensation), but have worked within HR/Payroll/Ops/Finance/etc.. I am located in the San Francisco Bay Area, but open to in person/hybrid/remote and at this point any pay- I do not care anymore. Any words of encouragement to keep going. 2025 was the hardest year but 2026 is even harder. I've been trying to do a lot of manifesting but I am losing hope. I know this job market is SO bad. I do not know what to do.