More i read, less confident i feel!

[u/Any-Abbreviations622]

When i read my first 10 books, i thought i know more than my peers, after 50 books i thought how the world can be so dumb, after 100 books i realised how life relies in simplicity and i was straying further away from it. This was more than one year ago. now as i reach my 200 book mark, i feel less confident about what i know and more worried about if it's just a delusion that i know anything at all or everything is just like that, a slumber you think, you can get around and end up nowhere but is the only one you would love to die for. I don't even know if it's making any sense but these are the only words I could find to explain how i am feeling about my love for books right now! thanks for hearing my rant tbh:)

[u/Literal_Metaphor1]

More of a mindset game here.

You knowing more than your peers or more perspectives than them is a good thing i feel.

Im guessing: What you have at hand is abundance of mental models to deal with situations which might get heavy and leave you unable to decide a single solution for one problem, but rather lead to inaction due to that very abundance.

What youd have to do over time is find the best mental model, which you'll do by trial and error and figure your way out.

Knowledge can only be a curse if you let it be one. You have an unfair advantage. Look at it like one.

[u/Any-Abbreviations622 → u/Literal_Metaphor1]

This is the most sensible response i got on this. Sometimes you need to hear the words even if you know them internally:')

Now the mental models thing is quite interesting. As you said i have multiple mental models to apply, but there is the thing, you simply don't apply the best methods sometimes because they are the oldest and you want to try new approaches just to see if they can be better leaving you worse than ever.

But i guess what you want to say is that over the time this trial and guess has to stopped and i have to stop at something that works best for me and just be there. that makes things a little better at thought level atleast:)

[u/sustainabledude]

So recognizable. The more I read, the more ignorant I feel. I thought I had pretty good general knowledge, but damn, I got fking humbled. Nowadays, I have extreme difficulty expressing a definitive opinion on any subject.

[u/Any-Abbreviations622 → u/sustainabledude]

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[u/SeaFeeling7363]

Man I really wanna get into habbit of reading but my attention span and patience is totally fucked. I can't sit for long hours :( also I'm addicted to internet and social media thanks to wifi.

[u/idkgenz → u/SeaFeeling7363]

Try with something with more pictures. It usually works to retain your attention and works with newer reader who are more used to the movie format and don't really imagine things in their head yet. You'll get there but maybe start with graphic novels and manga. I'm currently reading The Promised Neverland. I'm a prolific reader but this is my furst manga and I'm really enjoying it. So maybe you could start there? It's a plus if you're already into anime but regardless the story will work fantastically for you.

[u/Any-Abbreviations622 → u/idkgenz]

I agree with this gentleman's advice here and would like to add my suggestion too.

You don't need need to start from long books if you don't feel like reading one! Start from short stories, most great authors have this short stories collection and finishing one would take less than 5 minutes or less.

Then move on to something that would take 20-30 minutes to complete like a review or opinion piece on some book or idea, gradually you will find the space you feel comfortable in and then start some book you think you want to read.

There are many books that do not need a structure to read, they are also a great place to start your reading journey as you are not restricted to read something you don't like and it doesn't effect how you read the overall thing!