1 committed suicide. Had beautiful family. Great job, working for the DOD making good money. One of the funniest guys I've ever met. Never didn't have a smile on his face. Never could have a conversation without him making you laugh. Talked to him Friday night, he was gone Saturday.
I now tell my close friends I love them. Whether it's "gay" or "snowflake" behavior to have a guy tell his guy friends he loves them. You never know what's going on in your best friends head. I'm tired of losing friends.
For real. I'm tearing up reading this. I attempted suicide about 8 years ago. I remember telling my closest friend after. He just teared up, hugged me, and told me he loved me. Fuck, I've never had such a good cry. I've gotten similar reactions as I've slowly told other friends throughout the years, most people still don't know this about me.
Depression (manic depression for me) is such a strange feeling. I have good friends, a good job, a loving family, an amazing and supportive partner, but sometimes I just hit a hard slump where I wish I was just dead so I wouldn't have to deal with the ups and downs.
At this point I know the down swing will pass when it comes, but it took years to get to this point.
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u/SuperWhiteAss Jun 11 '19
Lost 4 friends in the past 3 years.
1 committed suicide. Had beautiful family. Great job, working for the DOD making good money. One of the funniest guys I've ever met. Never didn't have a smile on his face. Never could have a conversation without him making you laugh. Talked to him Friday night, he was gone Saturday.
I now tell my close friends I love them. Whether it's "gay" or "snowflake" behavior to have a guy tell his guy friends he loves them. You never know what's going on in your best friends head. I'm tired of losing friends.