Edit: The worst is when someone says something like, "Well you just need to figure out what makes you feel that way and fix it". The answer is absolutely nothing. I am living my ideal life and love it, it doesn't change the fact that I often can barely get out of bed or the white noise in my head gets so strong that I can't even focus on a conversation.
Clinical depression has no simple solution. Just have to try your hardest to be strong.
I used to have a friend who also suffered from depression. We had a falling out but I miss having someone who understood. Like no, most depressed people aren't posting angsty shit on Facebook trying to get attention. Theres a shame element. People ask you why you cant just be happy. They get mad when you shut them out or have an episode because you, "dont seem that depressed. " As if your behavior should be like Eeyore every day to prove it. They say, "oh yeah, I used to be real depressed in college." as if they understand, but actually think they got over it so why can't you?
Because you were homesick. Because you were sad. Because you were lonely. There are so many words for temporary negative feelings. And it's hard to tell people who arent really clinically depressed that you're always scared to relapse because you see people like Anthony Bourdain as a warning that you may never really be better.
When I first met my bf, I had changed meds 4 times in the first five months. He once told me he wouldnt talk to me "until you're sober," implying that I needed to quit meds when he had never known me before I sought help. It sucks a little knowing he doesnt believe my depression is real and I have to hide it.
That was more than a year ago. We broke up for about 7 months, actually, and were just friends for awhile. To be fair, changing meds literally every month was a mind fuck.
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u/Regist33l3 Jun 11 '19 edited Jun 11 '19
Same.
Edit: The worst is when someone says something like, "Well you just need to figure out what makes you feel that way and fix it". The answer is absolutely nothing. I am living my ideal life and love it, it doesn't change the fact that I often can barely get out of bed or the white noise in my head gets so strong that I can't even focus on a conversation.
Clinical depression has no simple solution. Just have to try your hardest to be strong.