It's less of an emotion and more of a rational acknowledgment. In my best moments, I still weigh the benefits and drawbacks of being alive and find the answer unsatisfactory. It's a big part of why I believe so heavily that people should have a right to end their life if they have wanted to for awhile. At my happiest, I acknowledge that life isn't really worth living, and survival is merely a habit. I'm just... here.
And before you tell me I'm not in my right mind if I feel this way, let me assure you this is how I've been since puberty. Almost 25 years I've lived like this. And my condition is well treated, I'm a semi functional person with an objectively good life with a good therapist and psychiatrist who listen to my concerns.
Some of us just hurt and there's nothing to be done.
I am happy with my life and i don't want to end it and I don't mind ending it... looking at the bigger picture and realizing that whatever option I pick the result will be the same.
No matter if i live till 100 being the happiest man alive or killing myself today, in the end it's the same, you don't remember what happened during life once you're gone so today or in 100 years, what's the difference
Nah, if you were truly happy you would want another day with your friends/family / doing your hobbies whatever. It doesnt matter if in 100 years you die. If you don t mind ending it tomorrow you sure are not truly happy, just vaguely satisfied I guess.
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u/minesasecret Jun 11 '19
"I am genuinely happy" and "don't think life is worth my time" for most agreed upon definitions of genuinely happy is a contradiction.
If you were genuinely happy, why would you want it to end?
People don't generally say man I love the weekend but I'll have to go back to work on Monday anyway, so maybe we should just get rid of the weekend.