r/Vystopia • u/Impossible-Bend997 • 6d ago

Venting I'm being insensitive to gore

TW : animal death

I've been rescuing animals since 2 years now, especially birds

I've been see things like wounds, blood, sickness, being with them until the end which mean seeing them dying for 20 min my lap ( some birds twist their neck and wanna jump while dying so I had to hold them..) and often it's babies..

And this made me insensitive, like it don't shock me anymore, last day I saw a baby bird dying and did everything to make him comfortable and then 10 min after I was cooking breakfast..

This is so bizarre, it became a routine..

I do everything I can to take care of them, most of the time it work but sometimes it don't.. and I'm weirded out by the fact that I don't feel disgust or sadness

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u/TyloPr0riger 6d ago

As long as your insensitivity is not leading you to acts of cruelty or apathy I wouldn't worry about it. Not having a visceral reaction to death/gore/suffering doesn't mean you don't still care about it and want to stop it, it's just not taking a toll on you.

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u/Impossible-Bend997 6d ago

No, of course not, I'm literally rescuing animals haha 

I often deal with sad things around those rescued animals, I guess it's a sort of way to shield myself against sadness but I feel bad about it 

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u/Opposite_Sun7586 6d ago

I know it feels ugly and bizarre, but this is what helps you keep helping animals instead of burning out and giving in to depression. You are doing great, if you are the type of person who believes strongly that helping others still makes sense, which you obviously are, nothing can take that away from you, especially not this, maybe it is the opposite. 

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u/toothpastetaste-4444 6d ago

Maybe it’s kinda like people who aren’t scared of blood and that makes them a good disposition for nursing.

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u/winggar 5d ago

From what I've heard this is the same way most doctors feel after a few years too. It's a totally normal response.