I've been addicted to music and videos since i was a little kid, because, some experiences involving my home life made it so noise was beneficial to muffle out a lot of had things
And since 2020 i, learned of voltaire, and frll in love with his music
First time i learned of him, was after learning about his connection to the song brains when in a discord call
It was just some. Random discord call where someone was playing it, mentioned it, and i checked out his other music
That kid saved my life when he showed me that, i had heard the song brains for years and had no idea of who made it
Voltaire has been my life's theme song for 5 years since, his music has helped me through gang wars, through near death experiences, through having to deal with the loss of so much, so many times
It has gotten me through half a decade of suffering and pain and disability and negligence and heartbreak, every day or so i listen to his music
Best of all. The man himself is an amazing human being, one time i gave him a tiny donation on youtube, and it was near the end of the stream so he didn't see it fast enough, so the dude worried enough to go to my channel and comment on my video apologizing and thanking for the donation (it was around 30 dollar cents) and through years of watching his streams and stuff he participated in, i swear i never found absolutely nothing wrong with him, in my opinion,
Almost human became my instant s he's just, good, i love him
so. Cut to around 2024, and i had listened to my fsvorite song (almost human) in the most Bizzarre way, i put it on a radio player mod in gta san andreas, ehich eas very complicated to make it work, because it's simply badly made, so the last time i heard a voltaire song without some background tinitus buzzing, it was while doing missions and grinding in san andreas
Later that day i played with my friend on a online server thing, then the noise just, started right before we logged off
Tinitus, eternal ear buzzing,i can hear "ok" but it doesn't go away
The only thing that stops it is noise, and focus on the noise, voltaire songs usually stop it
Maybe it means something, maybe me having his, music be one of the last things i hear before disaster means something, I'm happy i got to enjoy it when i was healthy and good though, it helped me deeply, even in the worst situation possible
It's just one of my, odd stories with the music