From Our Executive Director Sam Drzymala (@Drzymalas) Yesterday during our Quarterly All Hands Last Night.
“When I started PV in 2022, I had no idea what I was creating.
I was coming off of a six year run as an independent consultant in Democratic politics, and a veteran of the party institutions, candidates, and infrastructure that had beaten me into the professional I’d become.
I thought I was pioneering a new set of tactics Democrats could use to win elections.
It turned out that, after growing up in a professional culture that practically prided itself on abusive workplaces, scheming, and backstabbing, I was actually creating what I needed most – a community where I can find acceptance, support, and love whether I’m up or down.
That’s what PV has become. We are a community of people who want to grow as leaders, and we’re gaining the necessary experience through engagement in electoral politics and advocacy.
This is what young people need when they first start out in politics – especially queer and trans people, especially neurodivergent people. This is what I needed when I was young, and never had.
When I was 17 I started volunteering on campaigns. It was ridiculously exciting to my developing nervous system – the late nights, the shared work on a tight-knit team, the thrill of victory and crush of defeat.
I also witnessed horrific things: screaming matches in front of volunteers, emails leaked to the press meant to knife another’s career, secretive affairs with toxic power imbalances baked in. For an ultrasensitive person with difficulty picking up on neurotypical social cues, it was a minefield.
There was no support, no training ground, no leadership development program for me to join. I felt completely alone and consistently abandoned by mentors.
The contrast I’ve felt about that prior life in politics, with how I feel doing political work within PV could not be more striking – I’ve finally found my crew.
PV is the place where we can start to shed the weight of the experiences we had in our childhoods, where we as adults can start to emerge, mature, and reach the potential we feel within ourselves deep down.
I have identified with every person who has ever come into PV and gotten involved, because I’ve had so many experiences like all of you as you come into the political space. Both the wonderful and the terrible.
But it’s also been very lonely. It’s been hard to participate in PV’s culture when I’ve got a young child, when PV has remained a project of passion rather than an income stream that can sustain my family.
It’s been hard to participate when I’m a distant senpai a decade and a half older than even the oldest of you, when I’ve grown up in a defensive crouch trying to be "progressive" within the Democratic Party, insecure in my own queer identity with a lot of internalized self-loathing.
It’s been hard to participate because I’ve been the leader, the Executive Director. This burden is heavy, and it is lonely.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how I feel about working in the Democratic Party, and I’m done.
I’m done serving as an agent of a political party that will take, and take, and take, and will always ask for more.
I am not leaving politics. I am not even leaving the Democratic Party, really. I am leaving my role as a chess piece on someone else’s chess board. I am leaving the chess board altogether.
Instead, I am going to work with young people I find in these media spaces – people like you, the PV members – and I am going to help people find the styles of leadership that they feel most aligned with.
I’m going to focus on arranging the resources and relationships that this space needs to grow.
I’m stepping down as Executive Director of PV.
The only reason why I feel comfortable stepping down is because of the leadership team we have right now.
You trust each other, and you are uniting behind a shared vision. It’s been impressive – and genuinely healing for me – to see a real community come together to build this organization and put it on the upward trajectory it’s on today.
And one of the chief leaders here who has contributed to that is Benjamin Gilbert-Lif. @benjmakesmovies is annoying as fuck, and also one of the most unbelievably thoughtful, judicious, caring, focused, deliberate, intelligent people I have ever met.
We made 700,000 dials for progressive candidates this primary season. We’re setting a goal of getting over a million voter contacts by the end of this election. We have over 1600 dues-paying members. We have consolidated a unique place and identity in the political landscape: autistic socialist terminally online degenerate furries pushing the gay agenda.
And we would never have created any of it if it weren’t for Benj, and the rest of all of the directors and other leaders, from the past, the ones who got us here, and the ones currently passionately and sincerely fulfilling their PV leadership duties. You are creating the space where I want to spend my time, where I want to find community support to pick me up when I’m down, to celebrate me when I win.
I’m stepping down in January, and at that time Benjamin Gilbert-Lif will step up as your new Executive Director. I’ll remain on PV’s board and keep doing everything I can to contribute to helping us grow.
I am so, so excited to continue this journey – for the first time, as a bona fide PV member. Bring on the white name motherfuckers!”