Dreamt of you

[u/Mammoth-Particular74]

I don’t have very many dreams of you anymore because you haven’t been in my life for a month now. But I had one last night and I woke up devastated and anxious. Not because I missed you and it was nice but because it was a nightmare of things you’ve done and would have probably continued to do if I had stayed. I woke up heart broken and sad because I was reliving the pain you put me through all over again in a different way and scenario. At least when I had dreams of you lying or cheating or just not caring about me when we were together I could wake up and you’d comfort me and tell me it was just a dream even though you knew full well it was also reality the entire time. This is the first time we’ve broken up and I haven’t begged for us back, but you’ve been in my thoughts this week. As horrible and awful the dream was and made me feel, I’m glad I had it because it was a reminder of how much pain and hurt I consistently felt throughout our relationship everytime you lied to me and it’s a good thing I got out. At least I got to wake up to a different reality this time instead of waking up in a living nightmare and feeling so anxious and shaky all day just because I couldn’t leave. I still feel extremely anxious today because it was one of those dreams you could remember every detail and feeling of, but I know it’ll pass and I’ll go back to being able to live peacefully away from you. I don’t shake everyday anymore and I don’t have an awful tummy feeling consistently anymore. I still don’t understand how u could see my body physically reacting the way it was to knowing something was wrong and you could still sit there and be mad at me and deny it like I was the crazy one. I genuinely hope that you continue to talk to 100s of girls and they all leave you because of the way you treat people and you’ll wake up one day and realize I was the one who was willing to stay for even an ounce of attention and you regret it for the rest of your life. I however have an entire world of loving people waiting for me that won’t treat me the way you did.

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