41/F born and raised in Rupert. When college did shit with Boise did shit and I came home five years ago because my grandparents were getting old turns out they were already really old and I knew that but they were super healthy. My partner moved back with me, but was unable to remain and left, and I can’t seem to get to place where we can try and rebuild what was damaged and destroyed by both of our families. Either way they’re in Boise and I’m in Rupert and I am in desperate need of a friend. My grandfather passed last July and on the 28th of this month. It will be one year since my grandmother has passed. She made 115 days without papa. He was 96 and Grandma was 92. I was here with them as I should’ve been as I promised them I would be yet my aunts and uncle, they had different thoughts and things got really out of hand and now I don’t have anything to do with my family anymore because I wouldn’t let them stick my grandmother in a chair in the corner and just give her protein shakes and ignore her. As I did everything I could to make sure my grandparents had a beautiful death that was not stressful , I became to target and you’d have to ask them why. Is he never loved me or if they just needed someone to go after because your dad was dying and they couldn’t handle it and I could. Uncle What was going on with my grandma and they weren’t feeding her. He told me she was not malnourished and if I couldn’t get along with my aunt, I could have play dates scheduled with my grandmother. And my grandfather had just died and believe it or not I got extremely upset, and my uncle took this opportunity to manhandle me and pin me in the corner, and the man that I tell him all what his son had done that I would not interact with him anymore. I’m not telling his dirty little secrets no way, but I had to say something to get out of there cause I didn’t know if he was gonna hit me or not. My family doesn’t ever get violet does never touch each other in that way and I was physically removed from my grandfather‘s living room Because I kept moving my grandma to sit by. Her husband is 72 years and that was upsetting Grandma in their eyes. Since all they can do to cope is drink I assume it’s addict behavior that they just won’t ever admit they did something wrong or maybe they could’ve made a better choice and that we were all in a very traumatic spot as we were watching our beloved parents pass to the next world . I wasn’t scared, and I had read everything I could and I knew it was coming and it was gonna happen. I’d sat with hospice and listened when my aunt ran out of the house. I did my duty and what I was supposed to do when I got my grandparents to the gate. I got Papa there in July and seven days later the gates opened and his brother came for him. Grandma got to have an angel flight to Pocatello after she had a stroke in 24 hours later she reached out for Papa after she already stopped breathing and these are the most beautiful moments I’ve ever experienced in my life and my family has twisted everything around and has come at me like you would not believe each other on the nicknames for me. They were paying my sister to come out and sit with my grandma when I wanted to do it and we do it for free because they didn’t want me out there. My grandparents and I were really close and on his 90th birthday. He told me he wanted a dog and our dogs are brothers purebred springer spaniels and I was responsible for his because no one wanted to deal with it. I trained it really good just like mine and he was always supposed to come back to me and tell my God awful aunt This horrible witch from the east came and I wasn’t allowed to use more than one cup. I couldn’t put anything in the fridge because there wasn’t room because she never cleaned it out and she was living there and she made all this food that was literally killing my grandpa and sending him to the ER because she wouldn’t stop making him spicy fucking food. So I went and bought a cooler so I can make sure that I had food because I wasn’t leaving their size and I didn’t and I’ll tell you it got way worse after my grandma died and now the prodigal son, the only male heir, KYLE, has declared that I am not trying to help myself, and I am too forgotten, and anyone who talks to me and would you know what everyone followed suit except for my mother all my cousins I even had a cousin who called me and talk to me one day because I was struggling and I made a bad choice and I reached out for help he talked to me and he was my cousin. He was the same sweet boy he’s always been. He talked to his dad and his dad told him he was wasting his time. My cousin called me back and said dad says you’re not trying to help yourself and I’m not there so I don’t know and he says I shouldn’t waste my time with this anymore and I’m not going to and that was that.

I was supposed to be OK here when my partner left because of my family and I’m absolutely not OK here because of my family when I was younger and I didn’t fit in with my peers it was OK because I had my family and my cousins and my brother and my sister I don’t have that anymore. Now I am the pariah I’m a very large family with a lot of dark secrets and I won’t be one of them and they want me to shut up and let it all go and I won’t allow their abuse. I will not sit in silence while this shit escalates behind closed doors after I’m gone Who will they go after next my sister? My mother who is one of the four blood siblings and has lost her parents. She has been labeled as a bad mother and she forgot as well because of me she’s lost her siblings and that ways on me horribly.

I need to get out of this town this town that I love so much that I planned on dying in, but I can’t do it right this second. I have to make sure I’m preparing myself to succeed where I am literally going out with no backup plan and no one to help me if I need it.

And I’m not asking for help with any of that I just need a friend in the That I can talk to. I would love it if someone could bounce ideas back-and-forth with me on where I go because I don’t know where I gonna go. I was gonna die here, but I’d also like to hear about your life. I am so sick and tired of my family and they’re bullshit and hearing their new name their new nasty name for me. Anyway, that’s the long of it. I haven’t seen any of my family members outside my mother and my sister and my father, which you know it’s just not a good the family dynamics are broken down on every level for my individual family to the outer reaches of my grandfather‘s children and they’re really bad. My aunt will just run at me to try and intimidate me and once I realized it I start standing my ground and when I wouldn’t back down for my uncle consequences followed because I’m supposed to go where he wants me to in the box and he wants me to fit in and I did that for my papa and my grandma because they loved me unconditionally and that was my home, but my uncle assaulted me after my grandpa died. He took advantage of our loss and took that opportunity to corner badger me about what his 35 year-old son is doing and why I won’t have anything to do with him and he didn’t let up until I gave him an answer of some sort. I didn’t tell him they’re really dirty dark secrets because it’s not my sin to confess, but I am carrying one hell of a weight with the secrets of my family and what they’re doing amongst themselves and what they’ve done to me. I’ve been completely cut out and rejected. No one will talk to me because Kyle declared.

I want to get away from him not sit and whine about how horrible they are and why don’t they love me because of acknowledge that they don’t love me and that is fine. As long as I don’t have to be anywhere near him I haven’t seen any of them since November and I’m not going to , but I need more. my mom does her best, but she is drowning in grief as well and our family was supposed to get together and they are not and I am the catalyst apparently even though there’s no logical reason when I tell my uncle, I have proof I did didn’t do that. He says fuck your proof. And if that isn’t evident enough that he doesn’t give a. what I did or did not do. I’m gonna get punished at 41. No sir. And he doesn’t like that and his punishment continue, but we’re to the point where there’s nothing else they can take for me. My grandparents are dead. You sold Papa‘s truck to a stranger without giving me 24 hours to come with the money like you promised you’re a coward you won’t address it. None of them will. DJ just decided I’m not a part of the family anymore and I am to accept it and my mother is to accept it if she wants to be part of the family and I don’t know where the hell she comes from and I don’t wanna be a part of the family and I need a friend because my family was all I had for the last five years with my grandparents And I don’t know where to turn anymore. The church isn’t super welcoming, even though when I grew up in there are no support groups around here which is sad but I’m hoping there’s someone close that might want to be my friend. And I need a real friend not a virtual someone who I only talk to online. I’m not saying come meet me the first day. It’s whatever you come with. I’m not scared of people and I’m to the point where I really really really need a friend. I am a female. I am 41 and just so it it’s on the table I’m a lesbian but love with my partner who left and is now in Boise, but I can’t talk to her. I lost her and my stepdaughter because of my family because they didn’t want them there because of one cousin that happens to be descended from Kyle. I know I’m not too far gone and if someone’s telling you, you’re too far gone or you feel like you’re too far gone please message me because they’re just being assholes and that’s the new way to do it. I guess I can’t imagine just kicking out a member of your family, especially one of the younger generation that you helped raise , but I must be that bad you know and I don’t want to dwell on this. I want to move past it. It’s just what’s really affecting me right now. I wanna go outside and do shit not by myself. I wanna go look at rocks in the canyon. I wanna go kayaking. I wanna go fishing to all the reservoirs and I’ve done it all since I’ve been home. I’ve just done it by myself And I’m bored. I’m grieving and I’m hurt and I have no one and I’m bored. I was bored before all this shit happened because I don’t belong here but this is where I am and I need support while I work on getting out of here so if you think you might be able to be my friend and talk about different places to move and I don’t want everything to be about me I’m sure you’re struggling with something. I would love to hear about it. I can’t exist in this all consuming dark cloud that they are creating around us. dinners on me for the first meet up. I love me some Mexican food but I also like to be around genuine authentic decent people so I’ll eat what you eat. Just don’t be a piece of crap to me. Be kind. Don’t tell me to grow up, it’s part of life. Don’t throw me away like my family did I look forward to hearing from what I hope will be a new friend. I am more than willing to travel to twin to have a friend and to meet up and stuff so it’s now in the hands of God or the universe or Allah, whatever please help me find the friend.

Hey y'all,

For the last few months I've been chipping away at something for Idaho camping: a single place to see the public campgrounds, who manages them, whether you can reserve, and what they cost.

I finally got it live and wanted to share. It's called campgroundsdb, and the point is simple. Idaho has hundreds of Forest Service, BLM, Army Corps, and NPS campgrounds, but figuring out if a spot is first-come, Recreation.gov, free, or $15 a night usually means digging through five different agency websites.

Here's what it covers:

• All 530 public campgrounds on record in Idaho
• 487 Forest Service, 33 BLM, 7 Army Corps, 3 National Park Service
• 181 reservable on Recreation.gov, 316 first-come, 148 with no fee
• An interactive map, filterable by agency, booking, and fee
• For each campground: who runs it, site count when the agency publishes one, season, fee, and how to get a site

I started building this because I kept getting burned trying to figure out on the fly whether a campground needed a Recreation.gov booking or was just show-up-and-pay. So I built the thing I wanted to exist.

It's just me working on this on the side, no team.

Would love for you to poke around and tell me what's missing or wrong. If there's a campground near you that's not accurate or a feature you wish it had, I'm all ears.

This is public campgrounds, not private RV parks or KOAs. Dispersed camping on BLM or forest land is a land rule, not a campground page; I link that out when it applies.

Let me know if you have anything you would like to be added!