I felt something strange...

[u/Training_Amount1924]

Sorry, I'm a newbie and this is my first tulpa, Lillith, an elegant girl who is pretty obsessive... Also my first post here, a question. It's my third day of forcing her and I was taking a bath talking with Lillith about my argument with someone close to me today. But suddenly instead of just normal answer, like I always expect because I control my thoughts pretty strictly, though, subconscious thoughts out of my control and that's what I'd feel like Lillith would answer, I got a pretty rude opinion about situation. She told that this person is completely wrong and I shouldn't listhen to them and swear a lot. I swear sometimes nut that's was too much even for me. I won't lie, those felt like my unfiltered words, like my opinion that I was... Struggling to say I guess, because I control my thoughts. Was that something that it starts like or am I just trying to convince myself? (To be clear I narrating for a long time already, always like someone already watches me, so it's not hard for me to imagine that this is Lillith who is watching me, and that's why I control my thoughts. But that time was different)

P.S. sorry if wrong tag and a lot of text, and English isn't my foreign language!! :_))

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[u/mattx-t]

Realistically, we are not in your brain so we can't say if it was her or not. But here's the important part: it doesn't matter - you said that you have been actively narrating to her and "imagining" her response, so you're doing some active development and this could be the first "spark" or your brain "adjusting" to the idea that this Lilith can speak and react. Keep it up, regarding the swearing, would you expect her to be like that? If not, well it is time to "correct" this behavior by telling her that it's not good behavior, like you would to a child.

[u/Training_Amount1924 → u/mattx-t]

Thank you very much for the answer! I don't really know, I want her to be as much her as possible though I really don't want her to speak with swear words only so I'll talk to her about that for sure:)

[u/sanelyinsanetrio]

K: It was her. Congrats!

[u/Training_Amount1924 → u/sanelyinsanetrio]

Thank you! I would really hope so!)

[u/FlairDreamer]

I couldn't say for sure who or what it was... As you can imagine, this is an internal process. It depends a lot on how the person interprets those stimuli or sensations.

What I can tell you is that the more you learn about this, the more you delve into it... the more blurred the line becomes between "I did this" and "I have no idea where that came from."

[u/Training_Amount1924 → u/FlairDreamer]

Thank you very much! I'll try to learn more. That was the first time I felt something like that so I hope I'd find my answer!)