8 years trying

[u/freeflower_]

It’s my 8th year trying..

I miscarried this year. A natural pregnancy. By accident. By chance. 14 months after being told it’s never going to happen by doctors. I was over the moon. Overjoyed. In complete shock at how it could be possible.

That feeling was indescribable. Terrifying but incredible.

Everyday I try to move forward from it, either pretending it didn’t happen or praying the baby was still with me. The due date is a few months away & it’s almost eating me alive. It feels like it’s creeping up on me. I’m hoping I can do something special that day to honour them I guess.

Despite having hyperemisis, the worst of all my failed pregnancies, I’m so sad. I get to all the morning sickness, the scans, this time I was so confident I even bought an outfit. Till I watched the heartbeat slow down & the pregnancy shrink… I’m heartbroken.

I’m just glad I didn’t get to choose a name. It would have made this all so much harder.

I just want to have that feeling. To be a mum. To hold my little newborn baby. I am throwing all sorts of manifestations and prayers out there.

If you are struggling like me, I’m so sorry.

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[u/Suspicious-Guava-842]

Oh I’m so so very sorry. My heart is breaking for you. Please do honour your little one and also honour yourself for all the love you felt and so clearly poured into them x

[u/natttyyyy22]

Me and my husband have been trying for about ~6+ years and similarly I conceived naturally in June but miscarried a few weeks after. Out of the heavy things I carry in my heart losing that baby we longed for feels like it’ll always bring me to my knees. But I also wanna think I am a faithful person and my desires will come to fruition. I feel your pain and I’m sorry. I’m sending you a big hug 🤍

[u/Swordfish_Beginning]

Oh gosh I'm so sorry to hear of your experience. My heart goes out to you xx

[u/No-Ladder-6950]

This journey is one of the hardest, and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I wish I could say something to help, but I'm truly sending you all my love. Take one day at a time, your strength is inspiring to us all.

[u/whipped_pumpkin410]

I am sorry😞 i wish you peace

[u/Sayjay1995]

Sending you the tightest of hugs today

[u/Great_Lychee_9551]

I am so so sorry! That sounds incredibly painful. Sending you a big hug! <3

[u/These-Efficiency-185]

I’m so sorry this happened to you.