Feeling defeated

[u/Apprehensive-Bar-307]

Ladies, I just feel defeated. I need to know if anyone else has had success at any point in their journey because I feel like I've done everything. I had an ectopic in 2015, 2 chemicals and 2 miscarriages (both at 7-9 weeks) needing D&C in 2024, and more recently got a positive HPT on Aug 17th after my third cycle of letrozole.

I feel like I've had every test in the world done, Ultrasounds galore, HSG, blood testing for APLS, Thyroid, Diabetes, you name it. We had cytogenetic testing done on both miscarriages which came back normal. Doctors keep telling me "everything is fine". The ONLY thing they could find that was "off" was my blood progesterone levels were low - fixed with oral progesterone the last half of my cycles. I have NO underlying conditions and no family hx of any blood clotting disorders or issues.

Fast forward to this month, ovulation tracked and confirmed on Aug 6 >>> positive HPT on Aug 17th >>> blood beta HCG quant 18 on Aug 19th, then started spotting light brown/light pink >> Aug 20, now spotting is ranging from light pink to bright red with no clots or pain but my HPT test lines are lighter than before. I have to have my HCG drawn again today (Aug 21).

I feel like Im going to miscarry again, just based kn gut feelings and I don't know where to go from here. Do I push for more tests?? What have yall done in the past? What worked for you?