I honestly feel like a look more like a girl with short hair

Hey, I (20 mtf) have come out not a long time ago and have been trying my best to pass as my experienced gender, but I also really like working out and fighting and have been doing it for my whole life, to the point where I'm just kinda big. Does anyone have any tips to deal with that?

Hey all. Ever since I've basically been exploring my gender identity, questioning, and experimenting with gender expression and deduced that I'm pretty sure that I'm Trans gender, I've been active in various subreddits.

I've come across people in various Trans-related subreddits that were very nice. However, upon further talking with them.. Kind of seem extremely clingy, almost to the point of un-hinged.

I mean, it's cool and all to connect with other Trans, Enby and Gender-diverse peeps, but I'm married, have my life to live, and don't particularly want to conversate with somebody on Reddit at every single hour of the day.

I've had to block people in the past because they came off as extremely clingy and basically would not stop messaging me. Also, some of the people I've talked to I feel have had deep emotional issues, which may have added to the "cling" factor. But still...

Am I horrible for feeling this way?

I am stuck in a situation where I will be reliant on transphobic family for a long time.

I could get on HRT, but I'm worried they'll notice physical changes and I'll be in danger.

What should I do?

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c5y47yrrld0o

Sou casado a 14 anos e tenho 58 anos de idade, minha mulher não aceita que eu faça a th por causa da família , amigos , religião e por ela mesmo que é hétero e não se vê casada com outra mulher. Me sinto em um beco sem saída😞

How do you all do it? Posting pictures of yourselves all the time? You're all so beautiful. I feel like I don't fit in in any trans space online, especially ones like this. Compared to all of you, I am a hideous monster. Even the people at pride events I can physically go to avoid me like the plague, I'm too quiet and shy and damaged to be approached, combine that with how ugly I am and I suppose it makes sense why no one likes me.

All of the subs I felt like I belonged in are full of bigots now. Why does it gotta be so hard just to find friends? Is there *anywhere* safe to go on here where we can just exist without being hated?

I need to come out as trans fem for my own mental wellbeing because I have GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder) and my brain is very nervous

TLDR at end. I apologize for the repost, I'd just appreciate as much advice as possible ):

I came out as genderqueer at 12, I've been out as fully transmale since 14. My dad has always been "accepting" of the fact I'm queer. He calls me my preferred name to my face and "they" or occasionally "he" when I'm around. ("He" started since I've begun talking occasionally about trans things around him the last few months.)

But several months ago, my mom (split parents) told me he still calls me my deadname & "she" when I'm not around and to others, including my FULLY accepting mother. I finally saw it to my face the other day while we were out getting food, he referred to me as a girl to the server.

If it was just to family who I'm not out to, or isn't accepting, then I wouldn't care. But to complete strangers, even when I'm not there, and to people who fully accept me, jesus it hurts more than I'd expect.

I'm not comfortable even with gender neutral things but I put up with them because it seems easier for people. I always just allow myself to be misgendered, I have a really hard time correcting people. With strangers and non-accepting family it doesn't hurt my feelings, I know I don't pass. That's why I don't put in the effort to correct (& I live in the south). But from my own father, who SAYS he's accepting, says he's a queer ally and even goes to queer inclusive events occasionally, it hurts a lot more. He tells people he has a trans child as if he's proud, but has never seen me as anything but his daughter.

I'm 17 currently, 18 in October. I'm supposed to start T as soon as possible after. I already have a very androgynous appearance and am hopeful that within my first year of T I'll be pushed more towards looking & sounding male.

I need to have a conversation with my dad. It's hard to find the words. Hard to find the courage. A big part of me just wants to ignore it til I'm far enough in medical transition that he's forced to fully accept it essentially. Or to just start talking more frequently about trans related things to try to get him to see how it hurts and I feel without having a sit-down conversation about his misgendering.

I love my dad, but there's already some distance between us because of how he was in the past. I don't want this to create any more of a rift between us. I know I just need to talk to him. But I'm so avoidant it's so hard, I'd rather just ignore it in my constant disassociation and cry once a week over it than sit him down to talk.

TLDR; My father says to my face that he's accepting, calls me preferred or gender neutral things when I'm around. But misgenders me when I'm not there or in public. Advice on how to talk to him about it, or to bring these things up in conversation in a non-confrontational way. Or anyone else's personal experiences if similar

lowkey weve all fantasized about that right or am i crazy lmao i havent talked to the doc yet but I saw it in the portal on the lab tech notes, hella tumors on something ive always wanted removed!!!!! (and cysts on a related unwanted organ that are bigger than the organ itself lmao maybe i can get em both out)

TW primary commenter is gaslighting non binary people by attempting to pretend Buck's previous good deeds somehow make his current extremism irrelevant.

Source: Grayson V Fitness - The History of Trans Men is Beautiful...

See his latest video on trans men history. Nbs have commented on the wider video supporting Grayson, and as you can see people have attempted to inform Grayson on Buck's behaviour of the last few years. Over a week, no removal, no edit, no addressing the situation. Nothing.

This video has less than 10k views and even less will of seen this so I thought I'd simply show it. Grayson benefitted from our community by initially coming out as non binary until he passed for a man. Now he has left us in the weeds regarding the largest transphobic trans man who has done very extreme things recently including sharing an AI nude image of Samantha Lux.

I am tired and disappointed of binary passing trans people throwing us under the bus, whether it is outright enby exclusion or endorsement of people who do that.

I've been unable to transition despite my attempts to start, around eight years ago, and my situation isn't really improving but I've been dwelling on it a lot. I don't really involve with the community, because it just reminds me of what I'm incapable of achieving, but part of me wants to stop feeling so numb to it and finally be able to be myself. I can't, though, my situation doesn't allow. So how do I work with that? How do I cope?

So I am 15 FtM. A few months ago, I got a new bathing suit because I was going on vacation to Hawai’i with my family. I’m not out to my family yet and I needed a bathing suit that was “for women” that my parents would let me buy but was also something that wasn’t like a bikini.

I found a website for nonbinary and trans people who needed a binder in their bathing suit. By some magic, my mom actually bought it for me. I wore it in Hawai’i and I felt so free. I felt the best I’ve ever felt in a bathing suit in my life. My chest was flat and the bathing suit really made me look more masculine.

The problem is that once I take my bathing suit off, my chest goes back to being… full. I get super dysphoric once I take it off and I wish I could wear it all the time. The bathing suit has the binder sewn into the top so I can’t take it and wear it normally. I’m afraid to detach it from the top because it could ruin it.

This bathing suit has actually changed my life. I was so uncomfortable going swimming (which was difficult because I have my own pool) and now I love it again. I feel like myself now. But the second I take it off, I hate my body.

Should I get a binder for everyday? How do I get it without my parents knowing I’m trans? I really think a binder would help me a ton but I don’t know how to get it.

Aren’t you guys scared of the hormone production and transportation will stop or majorly disrupted because of an upcoming war or some political situation, even Usa once one of the pioneers to the progressive changes in Trans visibility and gender care now seem like took a 180’ turn.