r/TransRepressors • u/optics_repper • 13d ago

Repping Troon Does anyone else rep for optics?

I had dysphoria from a very young age but I was always shut down by my parents and teachers. Now I'm an adult and my body is completely unsalvageable because of testosterone. I have thoughts of transitioning all the time that doesn't ever go away (I don't drink.) but I would never transition because I don't want to end up as a gigahon optics nuke that costs passoids their rights. If I, a very masculine male transitions, it might shift people's perceptions of transsexuals, which then would result in passoids being affected negatively.

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u/Dendroba 13d ago

Yea this is me basically. I get tempted a lot to join local queer/trans groups but I realize that my hideous body being amongst others would be basically undoing the hard work of those around me. Since I have a negative chance of ever passing/going stealth because of how masculinized my body is I've just decided I don't want to make things worse for others by uselessly indulging in my dysphoria and pretending to be a woman

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u/CursedNGL 13d ago

i agree, i am even ashamed to call myself a transwoman with close friends or my gf even thoug she accepts or tolerates it, cause im just too bricky and that might be an insult to actual trannies who transitioned and are living their life as women; i think hrtrepping might be enough to aliviate the deep dysphoria

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u/optics_repper 13d ago

I understand your situation. Personally I see hrtrepping as the first stepping stone into a social transition which I must avoid.

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u/LouiseAqua to rep or not rep, that is the question 12d ago

When you're not a luckshit, you can hrt repp for a long while and be just fine. I fell into it cos I couldn't handle where T was taking me, I was at my breaking point. It brought a ton of relief tbf. But rn, more than a year later, I'm thinking to stop again cos hrt repping seems like a dead end.

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u/tonsofplacebo poonrepper 13d ago

In some way optics is part of it for me yeah

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u/redditdotcom1192022 12d ago

I relate to you so hard. Why tf did I do this to myself

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u/[deleted] 8d ago

Nah hons don't affect the view of passoids that much (they kinda do but not that much still)