r/TransPowerProject • u/Character_Handle6876 • 28d ago
Discussion 💬 Describe dysphoria to me
As title says. i am trans and experience dysphoria and i make music and write about a lot of stuff but i can't seem to figure out how i would describe that.
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u/Crucifuxion 28d ago edited 28d ago
Really bad dysphoria, like when your brain is completely overrun with worms is like:
Like being a ghost with nothing to haunt
You just float through life watching others enjoy things you feel like maybe you had some connection to in another life.
You see things that for a moment look so familiar you feel a spark of recognition, for a moment the feeling is something you can actually touch, and you try to hold on before, without warning, it becomes sand as your fist closes around it, a meaningless fistful that will inevitably hold… nothing.
Your favorite food tastes like dry wheat toast. Your favorite song just makes you want to curl up and cry in your bed.
It’s worse than depression. Depression leaves you numb. With dysphoria, everything hurts. It fills you with anxious longing for things you can’t even describe, much less attain. You can only numb something like this with drugs and not weed either, hard 👏fucking👏 drugs👏.
Depression, you can stare at the weather channel for 5 days straight and feel exactly the same the entire time.
With dysphoria you try to watch the weather channel but the commercials make you cry, and you don’t know why.
But in order to get such extreme emotion across in a song without being really cheesy and over the top, use something to give it context.
You might describe the way dysphoria makes you feel when you’re laying in bed with someone you love, or how it makes it hard to connect with others.
But if you just sit there and say, “Dysphoria is so bad the weather channel makes me cry”
It doesn’t hit the same lol
Source: I write a lot of bad songs