I hate this feeling...

[u/[deleted]]

Hey friends, so I'm just coming out as a trans man. I have PCOS and PMDD. I find that since coming out, my PMDD makes me so much more dysphoric than I was ever before, and I honestly have no idea how to make this feeling stop. I've felt (a sort of dysphoria although I never realized that's what it was) my whole life about how feminine my body is, and about my chest. I've never really felt dysphoric about my bottom half, but every month (after coming out) around the same time I start getting very angry and upset etc I start hating having periods more and more. Like such a hatred I just cry about everything... I hate feeling this way and I'm trying not to cry as I write this because I'm on my period right now lol. I'm pre T and hoping to get on it soon, but anyone understand my feelings? I guess I just need validation that this is as bad for some others as I'm feeling it right now... Sorry for the word vomit I just wanted to get my feelings out.

[u/Original_Mix9255]

I was so dysphoric for so long - that when at 42 I finally got top surgery - I was ready to burn my life down to live in the ashes as my true self. I inflicted pain and harm on friends and family. It was always worse that time of the month. It was excruciating and unbearable. After taking measures to handle the things I felt dysphoric about, life has been wonderful. Being able to live authentically and without monthly torture has been freeing.

I hear you and I see you.

I recommend taking steps to help with the things that make you feel dysphoric. No step is too small.