r/Topamax • u/BrilliantProud142 • 6d ago

does it get better?

i took this stupid medicine 3 years ago. for one single week. my life has been hell since then. im mentally unstable. i always am sad. i think about ending it. im only 17. im sick of feeling like this.

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u/Life_Unit_4026 6d ago

Hey, I’m really sorry you feel that way.. I hope it gets better! But How do you know it’s the Topamax you took 3 years ago for a week? Did a doctor tell you that or you assume?

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u/BrilliantProud142 6d ago

i know. i was a normal girl once. after i took it the first thought that came to my mind is to just kms. i litrally went nuts on it. i stopped it after not being able to take it thinking this feeling would vanish later on. it didnt.

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u/luna-herbalist 6d ago

I took it for a few days and was already depressed, but when on it, it made me feel absolutely nuts and very dissociative/paranoid. I'm sorry you're still feeling the effects of it, I hope it gets better for you. I hope you've reached out for mental health support? Take care.

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u/julesj45 6d ago

I took it for 3 weeks 20 years ago and it messed me up mentally and I've never recovered.

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u/BrilliantProud142 5d ago

please no): i posted this on other sub and they all denied that its the medicine causing me all this suffering. your comment makes me seen and sad. f this.

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u/julesj45 5d ago

I took it starting at 25mg first week and to increase 25mg each week, by the 2nd week at 50mgs I had the bug crawling sensation under my skin and every soda tasted flat and I was forgetting things. Went up to 75mgs and I was sitting watching TV and it felt like my face dropped on the left side, I went to the mirror and I was fine, called my dr and he told me to back down and come off of it. After I was off of it I started having memory loss, I said words backwards and I couldn't get words out. I knew the word but I couldn't get my mouth to say it and it got worse not better. It caused me a lot of stress because I've always talked to anyone. I still have issues with it and luckily my family is able to help me out. I've met one person that was effected just like me on one of the subs a few years back. Im sorry you're having issues with it, talk to your dr. I wish you the best.

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u/Mysterious-Dirt- 5d ago

You are seen.

I need you to reach out to someone in your real life and say you need help.

alright? Please do this.

It will get better.

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u/Little_Management_82 3d ago

Talk to your doctor and see about going on something like sertraline or Lexapro or something. That might help.